Coming to more fully understand this... the concept is easily understood, but like the flexing of a usually unused muscle, it feels very different than when you think about using it. The motions are easy to walk through in your mind, but doing is another story, as it is with Kundalini often... or I suppose... But I think I may have stumbled upon some true surrender... it's like complete giving and recieving at once... a very different and altered state of mind than what I'm used to... very blissful and warm... then you gather yourself up from the puddle you melted in and carry on as high as a kite...
blowin in the wind...
Keith