Hi,
At 1:00 today. I had serious problems with my back. I went back to a time long ago. In Spain, and with Egyptian stuff all over though... Healed something that happened that was absolutly terrifying to me. And then my back started to spontaniously heal. Later on I did a big American Indian healing cerimony on it. I was told what to say and everything. And now its on its way to recovery.. ok ...
I got back a part of me from this that knows lots and lots of things, can speak faster than I can think to get things done. But its only yet another part. It keeps popping out when I have a trauma trigger. Which is why I am the way I am. This part of me knows a LOT. It used the portal and ran into something and we had this big freaking mess when I got separated and stuck on the other side of me and there were other things? Or a property? there too that was trying to pull it into it. You most likly have no idea what this is like. I'm freaked out.
You know I got that part to call something to help me, and this thing showed up and closed it and gave me a key. I said, get somone who knows all about this... you know all about this... NO I DONT!... Sheesh...
I know can see past lives of..mine? Roll by. Most of my big problems stem from things that happened before me. I don't even care about what happened to me in this life so much anymore.
I was out yesterday and put a spinning ring over a girl. Rings are for me I thought, they channel energy. I did it on instinct. I freaked when I started to do it to everyone, everyone I saw got a ring. Without my thought. I thought I was projecting something, or doing something wrong... But then I heard... "You like to do this.." And you know what... It was right... I do. I love to do this. This is what I do. I do!????????
I thought to myself, I'm going to talk to somone about portals in your heart.... But then I thought....... Whatever....
Mystress, I think I know you from before. Check out with yourself. The battle of Norway, or Normandy, Or something like this. And also check out Venice. Just Venice... I laughed at this one. If this resonates with you let me know. My other part wants to talk about this more.
This is a crazy time.
I can program things in ..uhh.. other space. I got tired of saying the words all the time to clear me every time I come back here before I got in my body. Or whatever I do. So I made a clearing portal that I added on to with things. I just run through it and it does everything at once. Goddess aproved, hah! What a trip. Maybe I can market it.....
You know I thought we were here to have a physical existance... I keep having these strange dreams where people walk around blind and unaware all day and do the strangest things with themselves... Then I fall asleep and wake up to reality....
Sean
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: At 1:00 today. I had serious problems with my back. I went back to a time long ago. In Spain, and with Egyptian stuff all over though... Healed something that happened that was absolutly terrifying to me. And then my back started to spontaniously heal. Later on I did a big American Indian healing cerimony on it. I was told what to say and everything. And now its on its way to recovery.. ok ...
: I got back a part of me from this that knows lots and lots of things, can speak faster than I can think to get things done. But its only yet another part. It keeps popping out when I have a trauma trigger. Which is why I am the way I am. This part of me knows a LOT. It used the portal and ran into something and we had this big freaking mess when I got separated and stuck on the other side of me and there were other things? Or a property? there too that was trying to pull it into it. You most likly have no idea what this is like. I'm freaked out.
The separation is self created, silly. Your heart chakra itself is more than a portal, it has the whole universe inside it and Goddess too. You can go anywhere by going within, you need nothing that is outside of you.
You are having fun playing with magic, and that is your learning curve. I am going to tell you something that you will probably discover yourself later, and think it is new... heh.
(Do reread the "thanks and credits page of the FST intro when you decide the "inventive wizard" ego is getting tiresome.)
Giving your power away to a portal or a pixie wand, is still giving your power away to something outside of yourself. Thou Art God.
Have fun with it, this level of magic is a good growing experience. If odd things happen, remember that your giving your power away to toys and tools is a separation.
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: You know I got that part to call something to help me, and this thing showed up and closed it and gave me a key. I said, get somone who knows all about this... you know all about this... NO I DONT!... Sheesh...
Yeah you do.. but as the being pointed out, you are still being most inventive in finding ways to give your power away. Thou Art God. An incarnate being is more powerful than a discarnate one.
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: I know can see past lives of..mine? Roll by. Most of my big problems stem from things that happened before me. I don't even care about what happened to me in this life so much anymore.
If Now is all that is, and time and space do not truly exist, what is a past life? Good that you are choosing not to give too much attention to this phase of your growing. Let it all roll by, as you say. It is only coming up to be released.
: I was out yesterday and put a spinning ring over a girl. Rings are for me I thought, they channel energy. I did it on instinct. I freaked when I started to do it to everyone, everyone I saw got a ring. Without my thought. I thought I was projecting something, or doing something wrong... But then I heard... "You like to do this.." And you know what... It was right... I do. I love to do this. This is what I do. I do!????????
Kewl... it is fun to play, and often if you find yourself doing something like that unintended, Goddess is doing it through you. Zen stuff that just happens.
Sometimes tho, it can be a forgotten prayer or limiting belief working its way out... either way, do not attach.
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: I thought to myself, I'm going to talk to somone about portals in your heart.... But then I thought....... Whatever....
So you surrendered it and it came back, in this place.
Heart is a portal to .. a container of, the whole manifest and unmanifest universe. That is part of its normal function. Goddess lives there, and She is All. Don't try to understand it, it will turn your logical brain inside out. It just Is.
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: Mystress, I think I know you from before.
Check out with yourself. The battle of Norway, or Normandy, Or something like this. And also check out Venice. Just Venice... I laughed at this one. If this resonates with you let me know. My other part wants to talk about this more.
If you are All and I am All, then how could we not know each other outside of time and space? : ) If I went looking for such a past life, I would create such a past life. Fishing in the collective consciousness and inventing universes.
Whether past lives are "real" or not varies from dimension to dimension, vibration, etc. They are a useful metaphor, and it is best not to make them be more than that.
Think of these past lives as your personal mythology, your unconscious telling you stories and parables to get you to surrender stuff. Often it is stuff that would trigger a lot more resistance if it was shown to you as a present condition. On the level of the universal, you are all so all past and future lives are Yours. This phase is about you integrating the collective.
What ones you are shown have to do with what you need in the now. Don't attach to them and make them more ego stuff.
: This is a crazy time.
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: I can program things in ..uhh.. other space. I got tired of saying the words all the time to clear me every time I come back here before I got in my body. Or whatever I do. So I made a clearing portal that I added on to with things. I just run through it and it does everything at once. Goddess aproved, hah! What a trip. Maybe I can market it.....
Another method of surrender on autopilot. Those tricks work once you have enough faith points to trust Goddess has it handled. If you had a few more faith points, you would simply trust without needing to create a structure... but they are handy, eh?
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: You know I thought we were here to have a physical existance... I keep having these strange dreams where people walk around blind and unaware all day and do the strangest things with themselves... Then I fall asleep and wake up to reality....
It is yourself reflected... Blessings!!
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: Sean