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y'all, I'm having a real hard time. I don't want to be real negative about it cuz I understand the power of positive thoughts, yada. ...but..... geeeez... I am detoxing so severely it's wiping me out. I have fevers all day and nite, which doesn't make me feel like eating. I'm cold, then hot, from the fevers. My muscles are getting exhausted from coughing up so much constantly. My voice is rough and deep from hacking. I have all this nausea from my lungs draining into my stomach. yeck. My bones hurt, I'm exhausted and am feeling like emotionally, I don't have the strength to keep going. I keep asking Goddess for strength to do things and that helps, for a minute or two... I also have such a hard time eating cuz I feel like shit. I WANT to eat, but I feel like puking. And then my body's constantly coughing as a reflex whenever I stick something in my mouth. aagghhh.

See, I understand that all this is just the signs of detoxing, and that's all. It means I'm healing. I just wish the healing process was alot more easy at this point. My weight got down to 75 pounds. I don't know what else to do except keep plugging along and hoping that I'll jump up and beat this with my next treatment. I asked my DR if I should slow down and he said no, I should keep purging. Last night I coughed up mold. Smelled like it, tasted like it. :P Earlier this week my urine smelled exactly like the photo lab I used to work in. So, good signs, but I hope healing doesn't kill me!

Anybody wanting to send some good warm thoughts of joy and love and healing, etc.,  would be sooooo appreciated. Thanks
Love joy
Rebeckah

: y'all, I'm having a real hard time.

I'd say so.  I am so sorry about your suffering.

: Anybody wanting to send some good warm thoughts of joy and love and healing, etc.,  would be sooooo appreciated. Thanks
: Love joy

I will be thinking of you and wishing all the best for you--joy, love and healing BIG TIME.
Wish I could do more.                      
                          love, c-light

Oh sweet fairy - much love to you! May you have abundant awareness of all your angels.

Thank you so much for sharing with us.

You are in my thoughts and payers,
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