I have been pondering the lesson where the divine beloved is first mentioned for a few weeks now, and even though I know that My stress said that one's divine beloved usually takes on a form of the opposite sex, I strongly feel that my devine beloved has female form! I'm bisexual and have had both romantic and sexual relationships with women as well as men, if that matters.
Should I accept what my intuition is telling me about a divine beloved with female form, or try to work on finding a manly form that resonates with me?
Hey, Althea. I'd suggest grounding, then tapping into your discernment and once that's in place, asking you heart about that. The answer may likely come before you're finished asking.
Then, have feelings of gratitude, and say "Thank you."
Your sexual orientation actually has nothing to do with the gender of your DB. Gay or trans still get a DB opposite of the birth gender. It is about the tao of you, everybody is male and fem both, and the division is the conscious and unconscious mind.
The unconscious mind is the opposite gender of the body.
When it is not... well that is what the reverse gender lesson is about.
Do your childhood memories have a big gap, a few years blank space?
If not, then send what you are feeling into the light a few times to make sure it is no impostor or self created puppet.
If so, don't worry about it, it will get sorted later when you get to that lesson.
Well I also think that, as a pansexual person myself, that the Divine Beloved will continue to satisfy the bisexual attributes that are unique to your character. In my case, the Divine Beloved has satisfied my pansexual tendencies unique to me through different forms of sexual expression. For instance, first meeting my Divine Beloved was mostly me, a man, penetrating her with my mind penis. However, as my relationship aged with my divine beloved the forms of sexual expression have taken on new forms. Like, her penetrating me anally with a penis attached to her otherwise feminine body (domination type of expression). Which satisfies my need to surrender to a female/male form, my love for submission and just general kinkiness maybe?
Either way, your Divine Beloved can show you many things that may seem different from the status quo. Which is a great experience!
Everyones experiences with the Divine Beloved are unique in their own way :)