In 2010 I got a calling to train vampires, to find the unique ascension path for them. I was pretty resistant to it but the planet was *very* insistent that I get on with it, especially after the Avatar attainment in 2012. Vampires are kin to shamans, my understanding of the Ascension path for Shamans and Kundalites, seems to be why I got the gig. Yeah, FST is actually, an Ascension path and the most successful one in the world, and the history of the world. You can check with your discernment about that.
I don't explain that part in the preview pages because when FST came out, the term Ascension was being thrown around a lot, crazy ideas from people talking out their asses because of not actually being ascended. I was already an Ascended Master but did not want a genuine Ascension path = FST to be slimed with the bs going around.
So, as a Shaman I sometimes get a calling, an imperative to do stuff, even if I do not want to, and especially if it carries a title of Queen of something. For Shamans that means, given responsibility to have the power to fix stuff. Don't get to quit. Kept asking to, for years, until the breakthrough made it fun.
About two years ago I had a huge breakthrough and now the quest is in the can, so to speak. All that remains, is sharing the results, training the vampires.
Psi vamps feed on other people's emotional energy, and can become wonderful empathic healers. They can be identified by lifelong problems with unwanted empathy making the solar plexus ache so much they often try to put a shell around it as children, so the defining mark in the energy body can be a bit tricky to find.
The variance is genetic, the mark is a vortex-like shape, a funnel with the open end facing forward, near and often in front of, connected to the power chakra. I first discovered it when I was teaching Karma Vampire Games to overwhelmed empaths, in the late 90s. Strange artifact in the energy body that could not be removed, but responded positively to being fed energy. I assumed the reactions were mechanical, not sentient. Did not realize it was the mark of a vampire at the time, but was sure it was the source of the unwanted empathy, which decreased if it was fed regularly. We were throwing the term vampires around, the playful name for the training. The thought I was actually training real vampires, did not enter my head until I saw the mark in a self-identified sang in 2010.
Sangs are the blood drinking type, sanguivore or sanguinarian. Sanguin as in (dictionary) "ex·san·gui·na·tion: the action of draining a person, animal, or organ of blood." They have the hardest time of it, because they need their donors to get medical tests to check for blood borne diseases and it is just not easy finding safe people willing to bleed to feed. They need about a tablespoon of somebody else's fresh blood every 2 or 3 weeks and have a colourful subculture. Just a different sort of human, like shamans are.
The third type are the sexual vampires, but they are rare and different. Most are female and the vortex is associated with the second chakra.
Probably about 95-99% of vampires I have encountered, have no idea about the mark. It seems to be shared as a House secret. Some vampires like to create associations, groups they typically call a House, coven or clan. Some of them are quite intense secret societies with oaths, required markings (House sigil tattoos etc.) rules and shared spiritual beliefs. They often accuse each other's groups of being dangerous cults. The sangs especially, are a secretive bunch... when they are not doing outreach gathering items for flood victims and providing dinners for the homeless, trying to improve their public image. Can be tricky to sort them from all the mass of vampire roleplayers.
Some vampires get a bit too invested in the mythology and think they are demons immune to karma, and get into doing black magic. The Lords of Karma are not impressed and give them the karma feedback anyway but the black magic types miss the memo, and rarely recognize that they are the source of their misfortunes. Between the bad behavior and the undigested karma, a lot of vamps out in the world are pretty miserable, paranoid and depressed.
None of them know that the vortex is also, sentient, a quantum being and Ascension guide that is a part of them like the Divine Beloved or the Shaman Guide. That the vortex itself is a wormhole to non-duality. None but those I have trained.
That was my big breakthrough. Shamans can talk to anything and one day I got an idea to talk to the vortex of a sang I was working with and discovered its sentience. I had spent years looking among the various spirits, deities and totems the vampires themselves were occupied with, and none had the right stuff to be the Ascension guide... until getting to know the vortex, and vortexes. Their group consciousness (egregore) is quite fun. They are the youngest guides of this type I have ever worked with, joyous, playful and sometimes childlike.
Seems Goddess gave vampires an upgrade in response to the first nuclear weapons tests in the 1940s. The vortex that previously existed only on the level of wordless instinct, became sentient. In the 50's, seeing itself reflected in the eyes of the next generation, it became self aware. (Dog does not recognize itself in a mirror. A dolphin, or an elephant, can. Self aware.)
It began to alter it's vessel's physical neurology to optimize for clairaudience. This evolution increased exponentially with each generation. Since they are quantum beings,... its interesting to see the marks of the time travel work. They started to prepare the biology to hear them better while still restricted to being silent and invisible. 70 years later?... called me to be Queen and to a shaman that means, fix things.
Evolution is consensual co-creation. The vampires, on the collective unconscious level, accepted the upgrade on the condition that it remain unconscious. It was the 40s. People who heard voices were automatically considered insane, and there was a war going on. They were so stressed already and did not want to deal. Like, "OK I accept, so long as it does not complicate my life!"
Many vampires are quite resistant to the idea of an independent consciousness living inside them but the experience of the Divine Beloved and the Heart voice makes that less of an issue for FST students who discover they are some sort of vampire.
Another advantage for FST students is being able to ask their other guidance about the vortex, especially in the early stages of learning to trust.
The result of that old 1940s agreement: Ascension guide within vampires is forbidden to reveal its existence to the vampire it is a part of... Your DB however, is under no such restrictions and you can ask it to show you the vortex, if you have one. It is at the center of the empathy pain. If you find a shell, crack it open. Once the vortex accepts that the cat is out of the bag and the vessel knows about it, it becomes quite communicative and incredibly useful. Just keep talking to it and feeding it energies, or inviting it to feed, inviting it to talk to you.
I did not know at the time I taught my Dakini to speak, the vortex guides were all watching, and learned it too. They have been templating on me, to learn how best to guide their vampires to ascend, because they consider my tech to be leading edge on a planetary level. Speaking to the egregore of all the vampire guides, always sounds like a chorus of children speaking in unison, to me. Their theme song, that they haunted me with for a year is "Mr Jones" by Counting Crows. They are so lonely for a best friend relationship with their vampire.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oqAU5VxFWs (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oqAU5VxFWs) One even took that name for itself, though for the most part they do not seem fussed about having a name, shape or gender.
A vampire's problems with unwanted empathy is actually just a digestive issue. Absence of consent. The impulse to take energy is inborn, knowing what to do with it is not. Inviting the vortex to eat all the empathic stuff, including the pain, and to keep eating it as it comes, puts an end to that misery and instead it becomes fun snacking. The energy the vortex gives back is delicious like candy, ecstatic, glowing. The guide, the vortex, the incoming energy... all combine to make a rocket ship to ascension, like nothing I have ever encountered before.
It eats stuff. It chews the crazy off its vessel, off other people, eats some health issues. Depression, trauma, anxiety... all snackable. Evolution is embedded in its purpose. It wants to eat all the rest of the vampire's karma really, as consent is given, and then it starts snacking on the karma of the world.
Since it is quantum, it can get consent on many levels and through time. That part is automatic, it shows stuff people are ready to let go but don't know how, and people who have given consent or asked for help in some way. It can hear their prayers. It requests permission from the vampire's free will, consent to snack. The transmuted energy the vampire gets back is a really nice energy rush and charisma like a rock star.
The vortex usually also handles returning the pearl of wisdom hidden in each karma issue, communicating directly with someone else's unconscious mind or higher self... though sometimes the vampire is given words to share. Giving back the insights, balances the transaction. Win/win, no predation or parasites. Sometimes the donors get some of the transformed energy too. Vortex guide has it handled if there is consent to allow it to, and so smoothly. Some of my psi vamps have been testing it with cleansing and uplifting a big room full of people, an auditorium or club. Its quantum, it can time travel and be >1000 places at once. I call the vampires I have been training and working with, my R&D team- Research and Development... but these days the research seems completed, except for individuals learning about themselves.
Some of the psi vamps find people they do not know showing up in their meditations, or an increase of strangers who want to share their stories. The vortex is bringing them donors to help by feeding on their misery. Just tell it yes.
With karma vampire games, we take the karma of others inside ourselves (or what is already there via empathy) and then do alchemy of transmutation by shining unconditional love onto it. When the karma stuff of duality meets non-duality: unconditional love, it explodes like matter-antimatter. It is broken down to its components: the raw creative energy of the universe it was made from and the thought that gave it form, an insight into the wrong idea that shaped it into karma. Energy and insights. Keep most of the energy, give back the insights to the donor. That is the balance that makes a clean transaction, no lingering karma noise or attachments of win/lose.
The vortex guide accomplishes the same alchemy by tossing the stuff into the wormhole to non-duality and then handles distributing what comes out the other side. Pretty much handles all the rest too so the vampire just needs to keep saying YES when the vortex asks for, or points to snacks.
Quantum beings tend to have extreme respect for free will, both that of the vampire and the donor, but the vortex also has some pretty interesting ways to get consent. It can ask the unconscious mind directly, ask the higher self, even time travel to a dream of their past. So you can be quite sure that if it is pointing out a snack, it only needs the vamp's consent, the donors consent is already given. The vortex will not poison a vampire with stolen karma nor participate in black magic.
Goddess would not let me quit on my quest for the path to vampire ascension because these folks are really, potentially gifted to make the world a happier place just by being in it, being themselves, fulfilling their purpose with fun and joy.
Vampires, have an unprecendented ability to clean human emotional energy debris out of the planetary magnetic field too, a refinement that allows Her to better adapt to climate changes and human messes. Seems to be, what She wants out of the deal.
We always think, what is given to the earth will always be transmuted but actually She has to respect our free will and so cannot actually transmute what we dump emotionally, unless given consent to do so. Even dumping overload, have to give Her consent to take the energy and transmute it as She chooses. Graveyards, old battlegrounds, places of slaughter, torture and pain are on the buffet. The ability to read american civil war history like it is a take-out menu.
Some Museums are protected, off the menu. Places like Auschwitz or Masada: so long as there are holocaust deniers the energy of death and misery in that place must be preserved as a reminder to not let history repeat itself. Places that are put to new use, like the WW2 battleground that is now a farmers field or village, the most snackable. The vortex guide is extremely respectful of free will and will only take what someone is ready to let go... but, being quantum its got a lot of ways to get consent!
As above so below: our karma polluting the planetary magnetic field just as it pollutes our bodies, but embedded in the earth and going back thousands of years. Her focus is the care, protection and nurturance, cradle of the rarest, most precious thing in all the universe, sentient life. Us.
Tracing down the goth tendencies, I got an insight that vampires are eaters of grief.
When I asked to see the purpose and origin of vampires, I was taken back into far prehistory. Only beings who are self aware, have potential to suicide. A cow will not walk into a lake and drown itself if it loses a child but a human woman might, and in absence of religious and moral structures to prevent it... soon after our evolution to self awareness, suicide became a survival threat and so vampires, eaters of grief. Tastes like poignant sweetness, so delicious if you have the palate.
Some people get issues with the label, the mythology. Vortex will snack on that stuff too. Vampires are people, not much like their undead immortal mythology. Talking to a psi vamp earlier today he said "Fear of death is delicious!" and I said "Vampire!" and he fell over laughing at himself because who but a vampire would even say that?
I have found about a half dozen vampires among my students, some going back quite a ways. Most of them I noticed the mark during a session. Makes a kind of sense, the vortex guide being quantum, it knew I would be teaching this before I did and lined people up. We had our first group meeting a few weeks ago in secondlife. Was fun! Vampire satsangh.
So I know quite likely there are more vampires drawn to FST by their vortex guide that we do not yet know about. FST is not a vampire school but it is an ascension school that is extremely useful to prepare vampires for ascension and the vortex is an ascension guide as well as a lifelong helper and friend... so, call it destiny, synchronicity...
I felt moved to post something to help them identify themselves, and offer a sort of introduction to everyone else. Yup I know how freaky it all sounds- that is what your discernment is for. Ask it if you are a vampire before going looking for a vortex.
If some of my vamp team want to introduce yourselves, go ahead. Your call. Anyone has questions, etc.
If some of my vamp team want to introduce yourselves, go ahead. Your call. Anyone has questions, etc.
Psi vamp here. Mystress and some FST students helped me discovered my vampire guide back last fall. I'm still pretty new to it, and learning to trust it.
Graveyards, old battlegrounds, places of slaughter, torture and pain are on the buffet.
Goddess gave me the insight that I could snack on mental hospitals too. Snacking on crazy makes me blissful. :)
WZ
Quote from: WhimsicalZephyr on Jun 22, 2018, 01:22:14 PM
Psi vamp here. Mystress and some FST students helped me discovered my vampire guide back last fall.
That was a good chat, mind if I post some of it? Quote from: WhimsicalZephyr on Jun 22, 2018, 01:22:14 PMSnacking on crazy makes me blissful. :)
Totally fell over laughing. Vampires are hilarious, in an Addams family kinda way. :)
I’ve been told by my friend who is a witch that I’m an empathic vampire, at first he just called me a regular vampire in a slightly condescending way, then he said it’s just the way you relate to energy, anyways, I feel like I am a vampire in certain ways and have noticed it quite a bit since he pointed this out to me, now I’m kind of just wondering what exactly it is I feed on when I’m feeling crazy blissful and feeding off people? I’ve also had quite a bit of stomach issues... I’ve definitely noticed that some people are so much easier to feed off of, I’ve met a quite a few people like that and some people that seem like they do not want anything to do with me. My other witch friend “feeds off people’s weaker emotions†and I have definitely felt him feeding off of me before, specifically my weak emotions he is also hyper sexual. Any insight would be appreciated. Thanks.
That was a good chat, mind if I post some of it?
Sure, go ahead.
Quote from: WhimsicalZephyr on Jun 22, 2018, 08:22:14 PM
Snacking on crazy makes me blissful. Smiley
Totally fell over laughing. Vampires are hilarious, in an Addams family kinda way.
Heh, in high school my nickname was Morticia because of my long, black, straight hair. People would try to insult me with the nick and I would just smile and say thank you. My ex-girlfriend Cat says I used to remind her of Wednesday in my 20s because I wore my hair in braids and tortured people. :) You could give me no greater compliment than to compare me to the Addam's family. Morticia and Gomez have the perfect relationship, IMO.
WZ
I do not like to tell people what they are, like that. I especially avoid it with vampires. As WZ wrote, I led her to discover it for herself. That is what I do. Typically I have them look for the stuff within themselves, not even describing what they are looking for. I do not like it when people ask me if they are a shaman either.
You are telling me about your feeding habits and asking *me* if you are a vampire? Look inward and ask your self.
I have a few chats and sessions archived where I led someone to the discovery, if one of the vamps sends me consent I will anonymize if requested and post it.
Typically I will ask sort of vague questions, like to ask their discernment if there is something unusual about them that draws empathy. Ask their DB to show or let them feel what and where. Keep in mind, they know nothing of what you already learned in my first post, and I am communicating with their DB and their vortex testing it is communicative. I am Queen, they must respond... and they are lonely and glad to chat with almost anybody. Sometimes have to crack a shell open to get it free. Sometimes I will start by tossing some energy balls into it, so they can feel the response. I have actually made an experimental study of which vibrations are most tasty to vampires. I haven't been a blood donor but tossing snacks to vamps I am working with while they adjust to feeding themselves and finding balance is just a thing. Easy for me. Been making chi balls since high school, tune them flavours, the vampire recipe wants some karma in the mix, and I tested to find what essence is the irresistible total grief candy? Sometimes I will find some art that has the vibe and sort of bookmark it for later replenishing.
Found it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SWzKjXhbPtU (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SWzKjXhbPtU) Love song for a vampire - Annie Lennox. She nailed it.
I invite them to try giving it different sorts of energies that we have been clearing, feel the response. Then speaking to it, inviting it to take stuff, issues, karma, stuck emotions, problems like depression or anxiety. Next getting them to invite it to take karma off someone else, someone they know needs care or me as guinea pig if they have no one. Most people know someone who has asked for help in some way or seems to need it. Its pretty safe, whoever they pick. Pleasant actually. I ask them where is their nearest graveyard, and when they have it in mind, invite the vortex to snack on the emotional energy put into the ground there. Feel what comes back, yummy. Then I change the subject a bit and have them start asking the vortex if it loves them, to let them feel it.
Usually right about then, logic and self awareness catches up with what they have been doing and they interrupt to wonder "WTF am I? Some kind of vampire?"
Ya. I am not presumptuous. Vampires name themselves.
I show them what they have and what they can do, and they figure it out and name themselves.
In the early part I am feeling for the vortex response with them, checking it is real and not suggestion, avoiding projecting my guesses.
Some FST chats are about the only place I have been talking about my work with the vampires, and on two occasions a chat had a sanguine guest who answered questions.
Vampires who are untrained and do not know themselves have a bad tendency to feed on other people's life force. This is an invasive, aggressive act and some people will feel it and reject them. It also means they are taking in all kinds of garbage that they might not be able to process. Karma stuff, its all ego fragments and some undigested bits can get so embedded you think they are your own. Stolen energy is less digestible, because the vortex respects free will and the people owning the energy might not let go. Entanglements. The people it is taken from did not consent to give, so they hold on and its like swallowing a puffer fish that gets scared and inflates and sticks all spiny in the gullet. So they get a one-two punch of karma from theft by black magic, and are slowly physically and mentally poisoned by the snacking. Both contribute to some emotional and mental instability, and sometimes conflicting psychiatric diagnoses.
The reason I was so resistant to the quest for the first few years is, a lot of vampires are gaping fricking assholes. Present company excepted, I am sure! but gaping, seriously.
Pissing people off to get the negative emotional energy spewed at them, is the only way some know how to feed. Creating a ton of drama, fights, rumours that hurt people, lies and theft to make others send them anger energy is easy, it gives them a rush, they get to feel badass. The ones who know they are vampires, can add a few more layers to their story of why they think its ok to treat people like that. From there, upping the badass image with some black magic noise is a small step down a slippery slope. Add increasing paranoia from undigested fear... but fed they sparkle anyway, not in a Twilight movie sort of way. Bad-ass-holes with raging charisma become more effective predators. So it goes. Get muddy enough, the soul takes a hike and so does a lot of morality and conscience.
Here is an experiment: visit youtube comments section, and try to detect if the worst trolls are vampires trolling for snacks.
Vampires are potentially, very gifted people but often their gifts have gotten them very messed up in the meantime. Not knowing why they are the way they are, not knowing it has a higher purpose, that knowledge transforms lives into destinies. The transformation from predatory paranoid ass to awesome cool peeps can happen very quickly, especially with the vortex finally getting consent to transmute all the poisonous leftovers going back years so they become their true selves again and shed some crazy.
I know some of the regular folks read my first post and wished to be a vampire. These gifts... life is full of tradeoffs. Would you be willing to pay the price of what they have suffered because of it? Be slaved to the hunger that has driven them since puberty? Vampire is a service position, specialists and they do not get to quit. They get a leg up through the vortex, but they need it. Some vampires get so lost in the wilderness, they need to be airlifted out like that.
Goddess is a quantum being, and your DB is a manifestation of Goddess. Higher self is quantum too, so is everyone, but not everyone learns to access it, nor needs to. We all, are All that Is.
There was a point when I was asking Goddess, how can I train vampires to do what only Shamans can do? My mental file cabinet kind of got shuffled, with a lot of the things I thought only shamans can do, being filed under what ascended people can do. Shamans ascend at graduation, attain vajra diamond body. Ascension, is a human attainment. Any FST member potentially can ascend if their love of service to the Goddess and their desire to fully surrender go deep enough. All the fun, and none of the weird hunger imperatives.
I feel moved to share more here on the rejection point. The rejection from others thing has been a theme for much of my life, and it always mystified me. I figured, for the longest time, that it must be some inherent, reprehensible part of my nature that others could somehow see: they must be right, I thought. It was uncanny, though, how quickly people would sort of quarantine me, ignore me, or treat me like I was somehow foreign or alien.
Adolescence was stormy. Looking back, I can see that I went completely off the rails: not unusual, perhaps, for that phase of life. Confused and in the dark, I was utterly reckless in how I used my energies. I seemed to have this tendency to poke and prod others for an emotional response. I figured at the time that it must have had its roots in some childhood traumaâ€"not metaphysical. I see it so clearly now, though. When I awakened my recklessness came to a sharp halt: it was kind of difficult going around being a resentful a-hole after feeling like Christ for days at a time. It was one of several “crucial moments of Grace†that seemed to turn me onto a healthier path. I ended up on the spiritual high-horse for many years; but the new naively-moralistic version of me was better than where I was, previous.
The feeding thing is tricky business. Over the years and with maturity I have come to get a pretty good grip on myself and my tendencies; but the thought of being somehow invasive of other people’s space is unsettling. The internalization of repeated rejection from others and the resulting tendency to “split†myself into good and bad, black-and-white categories seems to be just another layer to surrender. It is amazing though, the insights that have filtered in over the past 24 hours. Memories highlighted with newfound clarity: How did it take me so long to put this together? Realizations like this are so succinctly efficient in the sense that I’ve learned more about myself over the past 24 hours than I ever have in any form of psychotherapy. More layers. When I first connected with the vortex I saw it clearly in my minds eye, and after letting it feed I grew overwhelmed with that sense of sleepiness I get after a good karma-clearing session; only this time, it felt stronger than ever before. Feels good to make friends with the vortex and reframe my relationship with it and the external world. Likely life changing, pivotal.
Does this run in families? I suppose I shouldn't go around trying to identify it in others--leave it to Goddess to sort out.
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I seemed to have this tendency to poke and prod others for an emotional response.
I meant to write about that earlier, and will. Time travel can take some interesting forms lol. Maybe just, copy it up.
The nature of the assholeness... yes.
Dreamwalker dubbed it "Trigger and vamp" and at the time he was recipient it seemed so miraculous he never guessed he would one day be expert at it himself. Shamans do it for eating PTSD but there is no real poking and a lot of selfless listening involved. Trigger a tiny bit of ptsd at a time with gentle questions inviting them to share, and take it from them as it rises. When you really listen to someone, setting yourself aside and giving them your full attention without thinking what you will say, people feel it and their unconscious knows what you are and they tell secrets and stories.
The vampire asshole version, is pissing people off, offending them, insulting them, robbing them to feed on the emotional reaction. Easier to get people to aim hate and anger at you, than to love you. Thieves, trolls, drama queens, shit disturbers, feeding on anger, hate, rage, hurt, loss, jealousy... They tend to get beat up a lot and take to martial arts and carrying weapons. Plus the indigestible karma is all made of fear so they get a paranoia that looks like guru psychosis. Same issue of being polluted with un-transmutable karma.
Why be an asshole, instead of volunteering for a suicide hotline? It is all they know, and they probably think they are half-demon anyway.
Problems bearing gifts, that they do not understand, sums up most vampires I have encountered outside of FST.
The feeding thing is tricky business.
Not anymore. The vortex knows what it is, what its job is and taking care of your health and well being is first, and evolving you, evolving everything. Response to nuclear weapons: clean up the crap that makes people so fearful they think radiation is a good idea. Do not underestimate a quantum being. My vamps report it even went back in time and cleaned up childhood trauma in them. A quantum being can potentially know anything and everything, be anywhere and anywhen, but we relate through a linear mind. Another way of thinking of it, if you take away time and space is, they are already everywhere. In practice, they tend to be specialists, like how Saint-Germain is an Ascended Master and an Ascension specialist. The vampires claim him as their own, too. The vortex can know where any bit of karma is parked anywhere in the world, potentially so it does not run out of snacks to find for you and the transmuted energy gives you health, wisdom, peace, vitality... and ascension, if you are up for it, when it is done snacking on you, although that also continues after. It is a good gig.
Memories highlighted with newfound clarity: How did it take me so long to put this together? Realizations like this are so succinctly efficient in the sense that I’ve learned more about myself over the past 24 hours than I ever have in any form of psychotherapy. More layers. When I first connected with the vortex I saw it clearly in my minds eye, and after letting it feed I grew overwhelmed with that sense of sleepiness I get after a good karma-clearing session; only this time, it felt stronger than ever before.
You got a nice head start, you already got the vampire discovery training from me, in your dream. I usually take about 3 hours with a newly discovered vamp. You do not remember it, but your vortex does, and is acting on the agreements we made there. We outed it, got it communicative. Agreements for giving you further training and knowledge were already made, it is showing you these memories re-framed with its knowledge. It has been a part of you, all your life. It has been waiting for the opportunity to be able to share with you: its greatest and sole focus and desire, longing. The vortex is not limited to words, in communicating with you. The memory-movies tell you more than words ever could. You can probably ask to see the parts of the dream you forgot and get the movie. That is what we shamans call these visions, memories or not. Getting the movie. Guide shows them. Theatre of your mind. You can ask to see movies about anything. Ultimate netflix.
Feels good to make friends with the vortex and reframe my relationship with it and the external world. Likely life changing, pivotal.
I really cherish those words, from you. It has been a long haul, making these discoveries and developing the path. How can I not share something that is so pivotal? Revolutionary, even.
There were a few vamps early on who expressed concern that working with vampires openly might damage my reputation as a mystic teacher. So far only one person has expressed concern that I might have gone psychotic, and they turned out to be an extremely repressed sang. Everyone else has been accepting, and intrigued, supportive. I appreciate that.
The vortex specifically, is invested in getting the vampire ascended, and that is a whole other life change that takes some getting used to; but you have been so well prepared. Surrender and seeing Goddess in everything, is a key to staying ascended. Having a quantum being inside you that eats all the karma lint that lands, to keep you purified is even better, if you surrender to allowing it. Being the type of confident charismatic relaxed person that people really enjoy being around: priceless.
Does this run in families?
It seems to be a recessive gene. Vampires may have vampire children, but not reliably. More vampires are born to people with no known vampire ancestry... but that could be hard to verify given that the farther back in history, the more secretive. Maybe the ancestors never told anyone.
I suppose I shouldn't go around trying to identify it in others--leave it to Goddess to sort out.
For where you are at, that is best. You have already gotten a taste of how fast the transformation progresses.
For the future:
I had two imperatives, discovery and sharing. Sharing with FST students is fun.
I tried to do outreach to the GVC (Greater or Global Vampire Community) and they spewed all their fear and paranoia and hostility- I had my R&D team snacking it off me, and off the vamps it came from, but I lost patience with it all. I am not so well equipped or thick skinned. I do not really have the experience of being an asshole to feed, that I think is required to become well adept at feeding on what assholes send me. Arguing seems to be a sporting event or vampires, like some evil debate club where it is within the rules to insist your opponent's opinions are worthless because they are a dangerous cult leader out to get rich by brainwashing vampires into feeding themselves to parasitic entities, and that they are the hero for warning people. I really don't know where to go from there but to give up trying. If someone is going to spew a bunch of their karma at me I do prefer they be respectful about it. Otherwise a bit of oppositional defiance of my ADD might kick in and I lose days caught in it. Too much stress for this witch. Been there, tried that, backed away.
I am more of a "if you build it they will come" sort of person. I started building Vampire Mystic Academy a few years ago, I guess, but only got as far as installing a membership management system with a forum behind it, both a bit broken. I started writing the info as an ebook to share freely but my vamps did not like it, they told me it needed more personal support than an ebook could provide.
I don't have the time or energy to write something like, FST for vampires and really not a big enough market either, even if I started charging to train them.. and I have no plans to. Vampires 3 hours training when I discover them in a session, is off the clock. Originally I tried to keep FST and vampire training really separate, concerned the vampires must be a disruptful influence... but the more I started finding vampires among my students the more I realized, its too late, its already infested! aaaaaaaah! LMAO.
One of the ascended FST grad vampires told me today, FST and being a vamp fit perfectly together.
That seems to be true, but FST is not a vampire school. It is a Kundalini Tantra school that sometimes results in students ascending. FST magic training and ascension preparation is of great benefit to vampires, but my preference is for this thread to be the all of it that occurs here. Not that I will ban the topic, but to the majority of students it is little more than a curiosity, an un necessary distraction. FST is useful for all vampires but they also need specialized training that is mostly, really off topic for the majority. I would like to send the vampires that wander into FST, off to a sister school, Vampire Mystic Academy, where they can get the specialized training and support from other vampires who are also FST grads.
I have it in mind, once the questions have pulled all the information out of me plus the ebook and some other of my writings, can be sorted and ordered into topics and lessons, arranged into some kind of order and each topic summary or lesson is a sticky post on the top of a board, of a dedicated vampires (& shamans) only members forum.
I hope some of the vamps I train will be motivated to step up to aid their kin, take over the forum, do some outreach just by showing up charismatic and awesome, support new vamps in the process. Vampires recognize each other easier, relate to each other better, understand where each other are coming from, better than I do. A shaman outsider was needed to locate the information that was made invisible to vampires but I kind of remain an outsider.
Also, anyone with some psychic vision can see the vampire marks, if they know what to look for. anyone with some clairaudience and channelling ability can connect to the vampire vortex guide egregore, the vortexes can all talk to each other, and any vampire can talk to any other vampire's vortex.
Hm, this all makes a lot of sense. For the longest time I was concerned with the possible negative consequences of "taking on" other people's karma, and sticking my nose where it didn't belong, so I tried to keep my head down. But I still continued to notice it everywhere.
I developed problems with addiction, but was fortunate to come out all the better for it, in the end (although it will never really go away). In particular, I realized how deadly censoring myself was, because my perspective was unique. And all I needed to do was speak up every now and then, and then let the pieces fall into place, so to speak.
Ever since then there are times where I am overcome with joy sometimes with how my life has turned out. I feel like I make a difference by being myself, and by trying to make the world a better place. That is not to say it is always easy.
I'm very interested in political psychology, and am particularly interested in how polarized the political parties have become in the U.S. One side seems to view themselves as the "social justice warriors" trying to save the world, and at the other extreme, we have "fascists" trying to destroy everything. But those are basically just archetypes that don't necessarily reflect the actual individuals who make up the political spectrum.
I mention this because neither side can understand the other. And while it's true that some people may model themselves after extreme archetypes (I'm not advocating that people should "symapthize" with Nazis), labeling people as one of these two categories is dangerous since most people fall somewhere in between, and it's important to work together ultimately.
As Mystress hinted, it reminds me of trolls who create controversial posts to get a rise out of their audience. They want to feel something, fast, but probably don't realize their own strength, and how much they could make the world a better place if they simply took another approach.
I'm not sure where I'm going with this, but this post really helps clarify a lot of issues for me. I feel like a strong person, but there is still so much about my world I don't understand.
I'm trying to get better and developing my own guidance, but I really struggle with that. I feel like my heart has been my best guide, and this vortex seems like a new powerful tool, but the concept of the Divine beloved still seems so foreign to me.
Vampire Discovery Training Example
Snippet of a FST chat in secondlife, Nov 2017: Shared with consent from the participants.
[11:15] Mystress: I am reluctantly getting my vampire school off the ground.
[11:15] WhimsicalZephyr: A vampire school, how neat.
[11:15] Mystress: ongoing quest
[11:16] Sigmund: they're lucky to have you.
[11:16] Mystress: well, if any vamps are actually interested, yes
[11:26] Mystress: the sock puppets book was coming along very well until I got hijacked by the vampire guides
[11:27] Sigmund: keep us posted about your books, will you?
[11:27] Gustaf: I still have my notes Mystress, for about 1 month of practice and progress (reduced chronic anxiety by around 50%)
[11:27] Gustaf: I will make sure you get them :)
[11:27] Mystress: thank you!
[11:27] Mystress: case studies fill out the book
[11:28] WhimsicalZephyr: Wow, Gustaf, very meticulous.
[11:28] Mystress: difficult to put a book around something I can teach in 15 minutes
[11:28] WhimsicalZephyr: congrats on reducing the anxiety
[11:29] Mystress: the vamp work is problematic
[11:31] WhimsicalZephyr: how so?
[11:33] Mystress: they are difficult people, paranoid and cynical and cliquish
[11:34] Mystress: I posted this to one of the larger vamp facebook groups yesterday:
[11:34] Mystress: Angelique Serpent Guess that's my cue... Leadership is always, a pig in a poke, something to be avoided. The Japanese say "the nail that sticks up, gets hammered down." Very conformist society. So it happens, I don't get a choice but that doesn't mean anyone is interested to listen. I am told, if I reveal myself, those who are called to the work will get a sign from within themselves. Testing... 1... 2... 3...?
In 2010, I was approached online by a sang vamp. The seers of his House had forseen a great transformation, evolution coming to vampires, and a Queen who would appear to lead it. Spells cast to locate the Queen, led to me. Annoyed him because they assumed she would be a sang. I pointed out probably not, or she would be in the same stuck place eh? (Turned out, we were both right...)
I was dismissive. Queen means something else to shamans, your life being hijacked for the duration, which can be years, a ton of work and no glamour. I had a lot on my plate already and the guy was a black magic asshole.
When I finally got around to asking my guidance why it would not allow me to ban/block/mute the jerk, it told me he was a messenger, and spoke for the many. The work was mine to do, and I did not get a vote about it because its important and there is no one else. It is not the first time I have been called to find the path for a group. Fifth time actually... experience counts. I accepted it and started the R&D.
Skip ahead, 6 years of my life being hijacked to the quest of finding the path of vampire evolution.
Success!!! Like I never could have guessed, and the work became a delight!
Yesterday, We Remembered. We noticed that the few people still alive who were adults at the time of the great world crisis, are in their late 90s now.
Here is info from that time, the priceless legacy of your ancestors that is hidden from you. I learned it from the part of you, that remembers.
Prophecy was right. An amazing evolutionary leap, it started born from crisis near the end of WW2 and the irony is the collective unconscious of sang, psi and sex vampires consented to the upgrade on the condition that it remain completely unconscious. They didn't want to have to know about it. I understand, people under stress, choosing that preference to avoid feeling overwhelmed. Decades and generations later, the evolutionary leap is in full flower, (and it is awesome!!) including some fascinating changes to the neural network. The next step requires the upgrade becoming conscious. It is still bound under the original condition of being invisible to the vampires it is a part of; respect for free will. That is why the work of discovery and reveal, had to be outsourced. A shaman's vision has no such constraints, and we can talk to anything.
I stand before you with priceless treasure in my hands, and an imperative to share it, trying to figure out how to tell you that you are all, incredibly gifted!
[11:34] WhimsicalZephyr: You mentioned that before. They must be hard to get through to.
[11:35] Gustaf: Been watching "The Originals", spin off of "Vampire Diaries" They depict the vampires well there, really messed up
[11:41] Mystress: I am working with 3 vamps at the moment, two are FST students
[11:42] Mystress: it is very surprising, science says the human genome is decaying, theirs is progressing
[11:42] WhimsicalZephyr: right on.
[11:42] WhimsicalZephyr: Mystress, I was wondering if I could talk about some blockages I have that make grounding difficult?
[11:42] Mystress: for sure
[11:43] Mystress: thats what the chats are for
[11:44] WhimsicalZephyr: I'll copy and paste from my most recent post
[11:44] WhimsicalZephyr: I'm still having some problems with the grounding though. When I try to open my crown, it makes me aware of the near-constant headache I have and that's a bit of a distraction. When I focus on the sun’s warmth on top of my head, I feel pressure and pain in my crown and neck. When I bring the energy back up from the earth chakra, I feel like the kundalini can’t go all the way to the top because of this blockage. I also get headaches, migraines and neck pain.
I’ve been having problems with the grounding, with letting go and surrendering completely. When I try to fill my torso with light, it is difficult because of issues with the gut and sacral chakras. Often there will be a tightness, a heaviness, a dark, murky depression around my solar plexus.I think it has something to do with three large blockages I’m feeling.
When I bring the energy into my torso, I feel a huge dark mass, almost like a black hole, with an emotional sucking-type feeling around my solar plexus. It often comes with depression, self-pity, and anger. When I feel like life isn’t worth living, that everything sucks and I can’t fix it, this is the blockage that is most active. There is a tightness around my diaphragm, and an itchy feeling in my oblique muscles. I try to bring light into it, but the blockage just sits there. I also get an itchy, tingly feeling in my obliques that starts at the diaphragm and goes down to the sacral chakra.
My sacral chakra is a mess. As I indicated in an earlier post, I am a survival of domestic violence, incest, rape and sexual assault. I don't know what to say about this chakra other than that it's a mess and there is a lot of fear stored there. I surrender these issues of the gut and sacral chakra, and bring light into the blockages, but they are stubborn and persistent. http://fire-serpent.com/tearoom/index.php/topic,1571.msg6877.html#msg6877 (http://fire-serpent.com/tearoom/index.php/topic,1571.msg6877.html#msg6877)
[11:45] Mystress: hmm now I will have to respond twice
[11:46] WhimsicalZephyr: Oh I didn't see your response
[11:46] Mystress: I didnt see your post yet, visited the tearoom yesterday
[11:47] Mystress: ok group.. (quoting) >When I bring the energy into my torso, I feel a huge dark mass, almost like a black hole, with an emotional sucking-type feeling around my solar plexus.
(comment: that line stood out for me, like a coded message direct from a vamp vortex telling me of its presence and asking for help. Decoded, it translates to : "Hi Queen Mystress! Psi vamp vortex here, drowning in poison. Please help!" The whole message is key words "emotional sucking, dark mass, solar plexus." Black holes are thought to be wormholes. The whole paragraph is a clear description of what having a poisoned vampire vortex feels like.
The vortexes are forbidden by the vampires agreement of their creation, from revealing themselves to the vampire they are part of. The agreement to the vortex guide remaining unconscious and silent, has to be broken from the vampire side of the deal. Knowledge of the vortex becoming conscious via a 3rd party spokesperson. They need an intermediary, a messenger to spread the news and I am called to do that. Pick a Shaman for the job, eh? They will talk to anything... ;) )
[11:47] Mystress: what is the shape of that blockage?
[11:47] Mystress: you are quite nocturnal arent you?
[11:47] WhimsicalZephyr: oblong and it takes up most of my solar plexus chakra.
[11:47] WhimsicalZephyr: Not anymore, no. I used to be
[11:48] Mystress: ask the fellas if they see oblong
[11:48] WhimsicalZephyr: Ok. Guys, do you feel an onlong shape when you look at my solar plexus chakra?
[11:48] Mystress: look at it from the side?
[11:49] Mystress: is it pointy at the back?
[11:50] Gustaf: Oblong and with "tentacles"
[11:50] Mystress: sig? G?
[11:50] Mystress: feelers?
[11:51] Mystress: makes an energy ball recipe... tosses it into the oblong. Report?
[11:51] Gustaf: Honestly it feels like an entity
[11:52] WhimsicalZephyr: feel a ball of dull red light in the middle of my solar plexus
[11:52] Mystress: lol yup, ...try an entity clearing g...
[11:52] Mystress: so the energy ball made it light up?
[11:52] Mystress: tell it to clean itself up!!
[11:53] Mystress: give it consent to eat anything that is in its way
[11:53] WhimsicalZephyr: it made the centre glow red but I didn't notice a lightening of the oblong?
[11:53] Gustaf: DB tells me I can actually vamp/eat entities
[11:53] Gustaf: Through the heart
[11:53] Mystress: g, ask if it can eat this one of if it is integral
(Gustaf is FST Lineage. I know his efforts to clear a vortex are futile but harmless, from trying myself back in 1997? His thinking of it just then, was his DB was setting him up to repeat my experiment and discover that for himself. Introduction to vampire vortexes, 101. They are not a foreign object, they are a factory upgrade.
I guess I do not typically explain how my gig works. When I open to selfless listening, their inner guidance notices and starts talking to me about what they need, like there is a second conversation going on at the same time, that the seeker is not aware of. It is a combination of channelling/telepathy and decoding the messages in the words they use. Their Divine self/DB/Shaman guide/vampire vortex talks to me, giving info like a handler on an earbud for an undercover agent.
Anyone can learn to do it, just takes long practice in selfless listening. Hearing what they say, and what Goddess in them is saying through them. The second coded message overlaid on the same words.
At the same time, WZ's vortex is telling me about what it needs consent for, to be able to get to work on her. That part is more, pure telepathy but vortexes are chatty and will talk to anyone clairvoyant enough, even if their vamp has no clue they exist. "All transmutation is permitted" is not my natural phrasing.
Vortex is like, the frog in the box, just a regular dumb frog if the vamp looks while the agreement is still in place, but for anyone else who tunes in its all "Hello my baby, hello my honey, hello my ragtime gaaaaal" ) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsROL4Kf8QY (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsROL4Kf8QY)
[11:54] Mystress: WZ, tell it to clean itself up, tell it that all transmutation is permitted.
[11:55] Gustaf: Well I did eat it at first, the energy, but there's a consciousness/meme left behind. What's the best way to clear that?
[11:55] WhimsicalZephyr: i did an entitiy clearing on the pointy thing at the back. The red ball in my sp expanded and lightened up.
[11:55] WhimsicalZephyr: there is a pain in my back in that area, fyi
[11:55] Mystress: ask it to return to its natural shape WZ
[11:56] WhimsicalZephyr: it's melting into the sp chakra
[11:56] Mystress: how does that feel?
[11:57] Mystress: you didnt eat it g, you cleaned it up ... ask DB
[11:57] WhimsicalZephyr: Better. Pain still in the back, but pain is no biggie. My chakra feels better.
[11:57] Mystress: so how does it appear now?
[11:58] WhimsicalZephyr: a dull golden color. still shaped like an oblong brick but warmer.
(Comment: I did not think to suggest she break open the brick. Previously, most childhood containment efforts appeared like a shell, round like a hollow metal ball. Ancient ceramic building technique- (sun baked mud pie brick appearance) suggests containment efforts started much younger than usual.)
[11:59] Gustaf: What is the difference? It felt like eating it
[11:59] Mystress: but its still there eh?
[11:59] Mystress: does it look like there is a little funnel coming out of that chakra? open end forward?
[12:00] Mystress: g, ask your db if this stuff is part of a natural aspect of WZ that took some damage
[12:00] WhimsicalZephyr: still there but not so dark and depressing.
[12:00] Mystress: say hi to it WZ
[12:01] WhimsicalZephyr: done
[12:01] Mystress: you ever try to talk to it besides entity clearing?
[12:01] WhimsicalZephyr: No, I haven't tried that. I was afraid I would just get back psychotic thoughts. I am prone to those if I don't take medication.
[12:01] Mystress: what did you get, g?
[12:02] Mystress: is it something that is a natural part of her?
[12:02] Gustaf: A second thing happened. After I thought I ate it, a consciousness remained. I told it that it's safe to go now, there's nothing left to hold on to
[12:02] Mystress: tosses it another energy ball
[12:02] Mystress: yup, but ask
[12:03] Mystress: sig, you got any stray karma needs clearing?
[12:03] Gustaf: Yeah it feels like a trauma, asking to be loved
[12:03] Mystress: its been traumatized for sure
[12:04] Mystress: but is it integral
[12:04] Mystress: how did the second ball feel, WZ?
[12:04] WhimsicalZephyr: it seems to like being given some loving attention
[12:04] Mystress: lol yea they all do, ask if it has been singing to me lately (the Mr. Jones earworm)
[12:05] WhimsicalZephyr: the second ball went off in my sp chakra like a bomb of golden light and it spread through my torso.
[12:05] Mystress: ah thats much better then
[12:05] Sigmund: I could always use a going over.
[12:06] Mystress: find something, ball it up and toss it into WZ solar plexus
[12:06] WhimsicalZephyr: I dunno, but I've been singing a lot these past two days! I made a whole bunch os sing-a-long playlists on youtube. I love singings.
[12:06] Mystress: yeah it knows what I mean.. ask it
[12:06] Mystress: can use discernment too
[12:07] Sigmund: k
[12:07] Mystress: tosses another energy ball .. bigger one
[12:08] Mystress: tasty?
[12:08] WhimsicalZephyr: it's singing 'twinkle twinkle little star'
[12:08] Mystress: "How I wonder what you are" lol its funny, so ask what it is
[12:08] WhimsicalZephyr: it says it's a big ball of light. has a sense of humour I see.
(Forbidden to tell... and playful as a child.)
[12:09] WhimsicalZephyr: a dry one.
[12:09] Mystress: ask if it loves you
[12:09] WhimsicalZephyr: I'm getting yes
[12:09] Mystress: ask if it wants to snack on sigmund's karma
[12:10] Mystress: big hungry yes?
[12:10] WhimsicalZephyr: it says yes, yummy. it sounds very young.
[12:10] Sigmund: :) thank you
[12:10] WhimsicalZephyr: big hungry yes
[12:10] Mystress: would you alllow it sig? is very pleasant experience
[12:10] Sigmund: oh, yes
[12:11] Mystress: ok WZ do nothing but tell it go ahead and work on sig and show how nice it can be
[12:11] Sigmund: :)
[12:11] Mystress: they are all young, can you feel its joy now?
[12:12] Mystress: is it giving you the euphoria sig?
[12:12] Mystress: just be receptive and let it work ok? both of you
[12:12] WhimsicalZephyr: my whole aura is lighting up
[12:12] WhimsicalZephyr: big gold aura
[12:13] Mystress: say goodbye to depression
[12:13] Mystress: you are done with it now
[12:13] Sigmund: I am feeling lighter and more spacious
[12:13] WhimsicalZephyr: same here
[12:13] WhimsicalZephyr: i feel peaceful
[12:14] Sigmund: i'm feeling and seeing the infinity behind the stuff, too. :)
[12:14] WhimsicalZephyr: I feel like making a lullaby playlist for my new sp light
[12:15] WhimsicalZephyr: lullabies make it feel safe.
[12:15] Gustaf: :)
[12:16] Mystress: remember that thing I pasted above, my message to a fb vamp group? scroll up and read it again WZ?
[12:16] Mystress: its lovely eh sig?
[12:17] Sigmund: yes, really pleasant. thank you.
[12:17] Mystress: you got the insights back too eh? WZ didnt have to do a thing
[12:17] Sigmund: nodding.. :)
[12:17] Sigmund: ... grateful
[12:17] Mystress: it smiles at your gratitude and eats that too lol
[12:18] Sigmund: neat! :)
[12:18] Mystress: WZ, invite it to eat all of your old traumas?
[12:19] Mystress: even the ones you do not remember
[12:19] Mystress: how does that feel?
[12:20] WhimsicalZephyr: I'm getting a feeling of sadness
[12:20] Mystress: tell it to eat that feeling too
[12:20] WhimsicalZephyr: ah that's better
[12:20] Mystress: and everything connected to it
[12:22] WhimsicalZephyr: it muches everything in its path like Pacman :)
[12:22] Mystress: its been hungry for a long time being fed resistance and rejection
[12:23] Mystress: is there a graveyard near you, or one you know of?
[12:24] Gustaf: I am still here btw, simply enjoying this unfolding
[12:24] WhimsicalZephyr: There is one about five minutes away.
[12:24] Mystress: ok, invite it to eat all the emotions people have put into the earth at that graveyard
[12:24] Gustaf: Ooo
[12:25] Mystress: heh, g figured it out
[12:25] WhimsicalZephyr: it likes that
[12:25] Mystress: and you get nice energy too?
[12:25] WhimsicalZephyr: I do
[12:25] Sigmund: afk
[12:26] Mystress: ok, so when I say VAMPIRES ARE FUCKING AWESOMELY GIFTED do you get what I mean now?
[12:26] WhimsicalZephyr: yeah, they have amazing potential for joy.
[12:26] Mystress: you
[12:26] WhimsicalZephyr: what do you call that little spark in my sp chakra that likes to eat stuff?
[12:26] WhimsicalZephyr: me what?
[12:26] Mystress: the mark of a psi vampire
[12:26] Mystress: is what I call it
[12:27] WhimsicalZephyr: you're saying I'm a psi vamp?
(Technically no, I have not said that... but I have proven it.)
[12:27] Mystress: you just proved it
[12:27] WhimsicalZephyr: i don't even know what that is!!!
[12:27] Mystress: yeah you do, you just experienced what it is
[12:28] WhimsicalZephyr: oh wow, that's awesome. Psi vamp means I eat karma?
[12:28] Mystress: naturally, easily, and it is like candy
[12:28] WhimsicalZephyr: cool!
[12:28] Mystress: including and especially your own
[12:29] Mystress: ask if it can eat your arthritis in all its parts, aspects and history? No promises but ask
[12:29] WhimsicalZephyr: it says yes
[12:29] Mystress: excellent
[12:29] WhimsicalZephyr: do i need consent to munch on karma? I had Sig's consent but a graveyard can't consent
[12:29] Mystress: it only took what was ready to be cleared
[12:29] WhimsicalZephyr: ok
[12:29] WhimsicalZephyr: what else can I eat?
[12:30] Mystress: ask if the arthritis is a side effect of your rejecting your vampire nature, as a child?
[12:30] Mystress: it showed up around puberty? 12?
[12:30] WhimsicalZephyr: Nope, age six. It says no.
[12:31] Mystress: ok, was curious, thanks... but it can heal you?
[12:31] WhimsicalZephyr: yes
[12:31] Gustaf: When it comes to munching karma Whimsical, I usually just ask my DB to show the karma in the other that they are willing/ready to let go and is in my/their highest good to clear.
[12:31] Gustaf: That way, no entanglements
[12:31] Mystress: :)
[12:31] WhimsicalZephyr: i do have less pain now. no pain in my back anymore.
[12:31] Mystress: yeah she doesn't even have to do that, g. The vortex has absolute respect for free will and its a quantum being, so its wise
[12:31] WhimsicalZephyr: thanks, Gustaf.
[12:32] Mystress: it cannot see sock puppets, so its vision is limited to its home dimensions but it is quantum
[12:32] Mystress: ask if I taught it to speak?
[12:32] WhimsicalZephyr: afk brb supper
[12:32] Mystress: ok
[12:32] WhimsicalZephyr left chat range.
[12:33] Mystress: so now you both understand a lot better, why I am called to work with vampires eh?
[12:34] Sigmund: yes
[12:35] Mystress: she didn't have to do anything except consent for it to feed on stuff
[12:35] Gustaf: They are a gift and part of the ecosystem
[12:35] Gustaf: Life eats life
[12:35] Mystress: no karma vamp games required, and it does it better than we
[12:36] Mystress: and you can see how rejecting it, not understanding what it was, has been totally messing her life
[12:37] Mystress: you see why you could clean it up but you could not clear it?
[12:37] Mystress: its integral, part of her for life
[12:42] MystiTool HUD 2.0.2 MW: Entering chat range: WhimsicalZephyr (17m)
[12:43] Mystress: wb
[12:43] Mystress: how do you feel?
[12:44] WhimsicalZephyr: it says no you didn't teach it to speak. I feel good
[12:45] Mystress: hmm, all the others say I did, but its time travelled and via my own guide
[12:45] WhimsicalZephyr: ok i took a moment to ground and it says yes
[12:45] Mystress: ask it about that? my research is ongoing...
[12:46] Mystress: what one knows, they all know, so when I taught my dakini to speak around 2007 or so, they all learned how.
[12:47] WhimsicalZephyr: it's silent
[12:47] WhimsicalZephyr: it says you are nice though. it likes you.
[12:47] Mystress: its purpose is all about taking care of you, your evolution and well being, feed it any depression or moodiness that comes up, and anything else too.
[12:48] Mystress: heh yes. Ask if I am the Queen of them?
[12:49] Mystress: sounds weird I know...
[12:49] Mystress: hugs it back
[12:49] WhimsicalZephyr: it says yes
[12:50] WhimsicalZephyr: lol hugs are always good
[12:51] Mystress: I am Queen of the vampires... of their guides, at least.
[12:52] WhimsicalZephyr: important job
[12:52] Mystress: this will clear your karma faster than kundalini, you surrender to letting it eat what it wants, you could be ascended within a few months
[12:53] Mystress: you can also have a fabulous career as empathic healer if you want, and skip the empathic part
[12:53] WhimsicalZephyr: wow, awesome. You know, I almost felt enlightened just having come to an acceptance that the life I envision for myself is not quite the one I'm going to get from Goddess, and made peace with that.
[12:53] Mystress: letting go is the most powerful manifestation eh?
[12:53] WhimsicalZephyr: It'd be nice to skip the empath part. empathy can be crucifying.
[12:54] WhimsicalZephyr: yes
[12:54] Mystress: empathy is no longer a problem for you, it all gets eaten
[12:54] WhimsicalZephyr: awesomeness.
[12:54] Mystress: it really is
[12:55] Mystress: you have suspected for a long time that you are some kind of vampire eh?
[12:55] WhimsicalZephyr: Yes, but I thought I had left it behind me in later years.
[12:56] WhimsicalZephyr: I have always noticed that I tend to gravitate to pain and despair. Now I know why. Snack food.
[12:56] Mystress: its a whole different gig when it is conscious and guided
[12:56] Mystress: yes, you especially can devour trauma and grief
[12:56] WhimsicalZephyr: Awesome. I can't wait to do that.
[12:57] Mystress: and consent goes to a different level, it knows what it can take and what is not ok
[12:57] Mystress: so long as you don't try to force it to eat anything its reluctant to, no worries
[12:58] Mystress: and it is very childlike eh? they are the youngest guides I have ever worked with and far more emotionally independent than shaman guides or the DB
[12:58] WhimsicalZephyr: so are you saying it runs on autopilot? Or do I have to focus on feeding it regularily?
[12:58] WhimsicalZephyr: it is incredibly childlike.
[12:58] Mystress: it will ask permission to eat stuff, if it wants to and does not have yoour consent already but the more you consent to letting it do its thing with you and others, the easier it is
[12:59] Mystress: yes, and very joyous!
[12:59] WhimsicalZephyr: Yes :)
[12:59] Mystress: and easy to talk to
[13:00] WhimsicalZephyr: I think now I know why people like it when I listen to them
[13:00] WhimsicalZephyr: I'm finding it a bit hard to talk to. I asked it it's name and it piped up 'Pip' but that didn't quite feel resonant.
[13:00] Mystress: yes, listening is a good way to snack
[13:00] WhimsicalZephyr: yikes!
[13:03] Mystress: yours appears to you as a ball but they look like funnels to me
[13:03] WhimsicalZephyr: yep, it appears to me as a small spark of golden light.
[13:04] Mystress: cool. The soul also appears as a spark, but typically white.
[13:05] Mystress: I haven't found too many limits, - though none so far have been able to eat my fibroids
[13:05] Mystress: ask it to take anything in the way of you hearing it clearly
[13:07] WhimsicalZephyr: ok, I did that and it still likes the word Pip. Guess I have a name for it.
[13:07] Mystress: names seem to be a new idea for them
[13:07] WhimsicalZephyr: Can I ask Pip to eat your fibroids?
[13:07] Mystress: yes
[13:07] WhimsicalZephyr: yeah, it kinda balks when I ask
[13:08] Mystress: and anything connected with them
[13:08] Mystress: ask it why the difficulty?
[13:08] WhimsicalZephyr: it likes your fibroids.
[13:08] Mystress: lol why?
[13:09] WhimsicalZephyr: they make it light up.
[13:10] Mystress: ask if they were grown from my body trying to feed a vampire?
[13:10] Mystress: without my consent
[13:11] WhimsicalZephyr: it speaks in very simple language. I'm getting an image of someone biting your lower back, so I think that's a yes
[13:11] WhimsicalZephyr: the words I heard were 'blood' and it made me think of your anemia
[13:11] Mystress: exactly so
[13:12] WhimsicalZephyr: pretty underhanded vamp, to vamp from behind
[13:12] Mystress: black magic asshole
[13:12] WhimsicalZephyr: Yes
[13:13] Mystress: he did it unconsciously but that does not make it better, on my end
[13:13] Mystress: fibroids leak venous blood, not just womb blood
[13:14] WhimsicalZephyr: yikes. I'm sorry this happened to you.
[13:14] Gustaf: Ok, I need to duck out soon, got early morning tomorrow
[13:14] WhimsicalZephyr: OK, Gustaf, nice chatting with you :)
[13:15] Sigmund: Go well and be well, G.
[13:15] Mystress: goodnight, g, thanks for coming
[13:15] Gustaf: Night everyone!
[13:15] Gustaf is offline.
[13:15] WhimsicalZephyr: Night!
[13:16] Mystress: womb blood by itself cannot feed a sang, its dead
[13:17] Mystress: so what I am getting is, the vortexes could take the fibroids but they dont want to
[13:19] WhimsicalZephyr: Hmm, I wonder why. Do you have any insight?
[13:19] Mystress: if I did I would be healed
[13:19] Mystress: a few times I have threatened to stop the work until I am better... it sends them into a tizzy
[13:20] WhimsicalZephyr: Yeah, my little sp spark couldn't eat all your fibroids, just kinda munched around the edges.
[13:20] Mystress: nice that it tried
[13:20] Mystress: ask why it could not take more?
[13:20] WhimsicalZephyr: It found it tasty
[13:20] Mystress: their capacity is vast
[13:21] WhimsicalZephyr: I'm getting that it's not the right time
[13:21] WhimsicalZephyr: I guess there's a blessing or a gift in it somehow? I dunno
[13:22] Mystress: soo tired of always being tired
[13:22] WhimsicalZephyr: I hear ya. Anemia is tough.
[13:25] Mystress: they are young, as guides, they do not seem to really understand how issues of the body affect us .. like they do intellectually but its more about hunger than compassion
[13:26] Mystress: so they can be a bit fickle
[13:26] WhimsicalZephyr: *nods* My spark is quite young, and quite bright, but very simple and nonchalant.
[13:26] Mystress: and sometimes very frustrating
[13:26] WhimsicalZephyr: Yep
[13:27] Mystress: however for the vamp they are a part of, they are so full of love
[13:27] WhimsicalZephyr: Yes :)
[13:28] Mystress: ask if it had an imperative to be invisible and silent until you spoke to it directly?
[13:29] Mystress: you could not even see it eh? the gold spark, until you made friends with it, before that all you could see was the pollution you collected that it did not have consent to transform
[13:29] WhimsicalZephyr: it said I wasn't ready.
[13:30] WhimsicalZephyr: Yes, it said it stayed silent because I never talked to it!
[13:30] Mystress: and you never talked to it because it was invisible and it was not allowed to reveal itself
[13:31] Mystress: because of the ww2 agreement
[13:31] WhimsicalZephyr: catch-22!
[13:31] Mystress: yes
(the agreement to be unconscious has to be broken from the vamp side, and the best way to show it you know it is there, is by talking to it.)
[13:31] WhimsicalZephyr: I think having a guide was the catalyst. I doubt I could have done this all by myself. So thank you for facilitating.
[13:32] WhimsicalZephyr: So question: psi vamps don't need to drink blood do they? I would imagine we just like to eat karma
[13:32] Mystress: no, there are 3 types of vamps, psi vamps have it the easiest
[13:32] Mystress: the vampires agreed to the evolution on the condition it remain unconscious and so it was bound by that until you chose yourself, to address it... which you would not have thought to do without the queen
[13:32] WhimsicalZephyr: Right
[13:32] WhimsicalZephyr: I have tried to talk to it in the past, but I think I needed a guide.
[13:32] Mystress: the world is your buffet
[13:32] WhimsicalZephyr: that's a relif!
[13:33] Mystress: yeah sangs life is not easy
[13:33] WhimsicalZephyr: what are the other two types? sex and blood?
[13:33] Mystress: ya, sang is blood, short for sanguivore
[13:35] WhimsicalZephyr: so what you call my vortex is what I call my spark?
[13:36] Mystress: yes
[13:36] Mystress: pip
[13:36] Mystress: its actually, like a wormhole, a portal.. ask it?
[13:37] WhimsicalZephyr: it says yes
[13:38] Mystress: wormhole openings are sometimes depicted as a sort of vortex shape like the top of a tornado
[13:39] Mystress: the stuff goes into the wormhole to the place of transmutation, non-duality and then the transformed energy comes back to you and the donor, plus they get the insights
[13:39] Mystress: ask if its right?
[13:39] WhimsicalZephyr: yes it's right
[13:40] Mystress: thus its capacity, can send a lot through that portal
[13:41] WhimsicalZephyr: *nods*
[13:41] Mystress: fun eh?
[13:42] WhimsicalZephyr: Lots of fun!
[13:42] Mystress: some day you may be moved to jump through that wormhole yourself
[13:43] Mystress: but wait until it invites you to
[13:44] WhimsicalZephyr: OK, will do
[13:45] Mystress: congrats!
[13:45] Sigmund: yes, mazel tov!
[13:46] WhimsicalZephyr: thanks!
[13:46] Mystress: all the emotional chaos that has plagued you in the past, is over
[13:46] WhimsicalZephyr: Hooray!
[13:46] Mystress: it eats depression and psychosis
[13:46] WhimsicalZephyr: yay!
[13:47] Mystress: invite it to snack on you any time, take anything, and especially to nip those things as soon as any trace appears
[13:47] Mystress: ask it about the psychotic thoughts, it can eat those too and the root of them?
[13:48] WhimsicalZephyr: a big yes
[13:48] Mystress: ok, I am not going to tell you to go off your meds, I am not an MD
[13:49] Mystress: see how things go and talk to your doctor about it
[13:50] WhimsicalZephyr: I am not about to do that unless I start feeling drastically better. I imagine this will take some time.
[13:50] WhimsicalZephyr: I'm not going to give up my arthritis meds either :)
[13:51] WhimsicalZephyr: It's funny, I recently accepted my illnesses and they stopped bothering me quite a bit. Now I can smile through a headache.
[13:51] Mystress: for sure there can be an adjustment period as you get into the habit of working with the spark but things can progress quite quicky if you allow it
[13:51] Mystress: give it the headache too
[13:51] WhimsicalZephyr: well, I guess I'll have to spend lots of time with it :)
[13:51] Mystress: I think you need chiro, some of that seemed physical
[13:52] Mystress: well it loves to chat now that it can :)
[13:52] WhimsicalZephyr: Well, I was hit by a truck crossing the street when I was six. Joint and spinal damage as a result.
[13:52] WhimsicalZephyr: yeah, my back does hurt a lot too. osterarthritis in the spine.
[13:54] WhimsicalZephyr: I think my back and head would feel better if I lay down, actually. I think I should head out now.
[13:54] Mystress: give it the pain and the artritis both
[13:54] Mystress: and the truck accident
[13:56] Mystress: I think we can wind up, post responding to your own thread in a few days about what you learned in the chat and how its unfolding, if you like
[13:56] WhimsicalZephyr: there's a lot to eat. I get the feeling I might need to repeatedly do this.
[13:56] Mystress: yes
[13:56] Mystress: give it what it wants and anything else you can think of
[13:56] WhimsicalZephyr: OK, I'm sure that will make it happy.
[13:56] Mystress: and like you felt today, it can do a lot in a short time when given consent
[13:57] WhimsicalZephyr: Good to know
[13:57] WhimsicalZephyr: I will feed it the pain and arthritis as I lie down
[13:57] WhimsicalZephyr: and anything else that comes up
[13:58] Mystress: good, keep at it
[13:58] Mystress: its your new lifelong friend
[13:58] WhimsicalZephyr: Thank you, Mystress. And thanks to everyone else! Good night!!
Thanks for sharing, it's all very interesting. I'll have to sit with it for a bit. When I asked if I am one of the psi-vampires, I got "something like that". I did the grounding exercise and asked again, again I got "something like that".
I know I've been very solar plexus focused for quite a number of years now. The stabbing pains appeared in 2005 (skull and solar plexus) when I went gung-ho learning about all things "spiritual". I actually asked for a lot of readings and healing on my SP over the years to "shift" things - it's been like moving a boulder. It seems to loosen in its own, slow and incremental time. Somatic trauma training has been helping to loosen more stuff up (letting the body do what it wants to do).
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Quote from: glassa24 on Jun 24, 2018, 07:18:10 AM
I'm not sure where I'm going with this, but this post really helps clarify a lot of issues for me. I feel like a strong person, but there is still so much about my world I don't understand.
I am not sure where you are going with it either? Are you saying you think vampire info is useful to non-vamp FST members, or that you think you are one?
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I'm trying to get better and developing my own guidance, but I really struggle with that. I feel like my heart has been my best guide, and this vortex seems like a new powerful tool, but the concept of the Divine beloved still seems so foreign to me.
Vortexes are genetic eh? Cannot get one by wishing or imagining it there.
I am a bit concerned about members wanting to be vampires and making themselves an imaginary vortex to talk to. It is not difficult to be so inventive, but a fake vortex won't be able to do what a real one can and efforts to try could get messy. Best to check with discernment, DB and the heart voice, and don't go looking for a vortex unless your other guidance verifies you have one.
Quote from: Blossom on Jun 25, 2018, 12:56:28 AM
Thanks for sharing, it's all very interesting. I'll have to sit with it for a bit. When I asked if I am one of the psi-vampires, I got "something like that". I did the grounding exercise and asked again, again I got "something like that".
You only asked if you are a psi vamp, there are two other kinds. Sex vampires the vortex is connected to the second chakra.
One would think, a hunger and curiosity about what someone else's blood tastes like, would be a big clue for people but it comes at puberty and some kids get so freaked they repress every bit of it completely. Sangs have two additional marks in the energy body besides the vortex.
I found the rest of this quite hard to follow. I get that solar plexus means power chakra, but the sacrum chakras and the second chakra are not the same thing, and I was sometimes not sure which you were referring to.
Secondhand thoughts from other healers, probably shared without their consent are not of much interest and I would prefer not to archive them... but you did come to mind when I was writing the opening post. Give it time.
Difficult to determine if I should place these vampire insights here or in the self-reflection thread, especially since the questions seem to be answered as I type them out (lol). Seems to fit well here as qualitative data, though I'm sure most of it conforms to developmental processes that have already been mapped out.
The ache in my power chakra has taken on a different flavor than before; whereas before it was a dark, depressive cloud, it now feels like having been punched in the stomach and seems hyper-sensitive to proximity with other people. Perhaps I haven't completely cracked the shell? The other day, just walking into a take-out restaurant I could "feel" the guy at the cash-register most acutely, sort of like super-charged empathy. I feel everyone around me. It's intense. And to think that this was what my body was subjected to all those years, but I couldn't feel it because I was so empathically congested.
Interestingly, grounding has become much easier now. I always wondered why it felt so difficult before--so much resistance around the power-chakra that no entity-clearing would clear.
I fed the vortex quite a bit last night; imagined a local cemetery and invited it to take some lint off some family members if it saw fit to do so. Was met with insights about the other side of the wormhole, non-duality and a huge energy rush and ended up unable to sleep (lol). Woke up to more empathic barrage. At this time, it feels easier to feed it with ambient stuff--stuff outside my own energy body. Is it sort of like normal karma clearing, surrendering it all piece-by-piece but to something different? I think I'm so habituated to resisting the empathic barrage and reframing my relationship with it will be a process. Trying to get into that mindset of "this is a delicious energy-gift for the vortex" which seems to be where the magic happens. I still flicker in and out of the judgement thing, I suppose it's just a discipline I'll need to reinforce until it becomes more natural. Ultimately, I think it comes down to readiness to let things go, in my heart.
Ascension is a step I'm open to taking if that's what's ultimately in the cards. I get the impression I'll just get there if/when I'm at that point: I'll just be there. Difficult to explain, but that's all my intuition has to say about it. I think that's likely why my guidance led me here; well, between that and sorting myself out and regaining balance. Guidance right now just tells me I'm in a process. There's all these things deep down that I somehow already know that I just need to discover. Will the vortex take me there faster than I maybe planned? Still feels like it comes down to my readiness to let go; but great potential--an invitation of sorts--feels present. And letting go of all this stuff--in my case, feeding on and digesting it properly--feels so much better, anyway.
Okay, I will give it time. And you're right, I didn't ask about the other two.
hmm, it never occurred to me that I should get consent for sharing information passed on to me about me. I guess I am a bit confused about ownership of material shared in that space. I will sit with that too and ask my inner voice when I am in a better space.
Quote from: TheFifth on Jun 25, 2018, 04:15:39 PM
The other day, just walking into a take-out restaurant I could "feel" the guy at the cash-register most acutely, sort of like super-charged empathy. I feel everyone around me. It's intense. And to think that this was what my body was subjected to all those years, but I couldn't feel it because I was so empathically congested.
The empathic sensitivity is one of your vampire super powers. Think of the sensitivity of a dog's nose. One third of a dogs brain is dedicated to interpreting what the nose detects, it knows everything about everyone in the room, their health, pets and mood and it also knows about everyone who came into the room in the past, even a week before. It prioritizes what smells like food, friend or danger, and it only has a little brain, about as smart as a 3 year old child.
You have a big human brain plus assistance from a specialized quantum being that potentially can know everything. It also, prioritizes for what smells like food or danger, and the more you give it consent to graze freely on what it is pointing out as snackable, the less it troubles you to be so sensitive because the stuff is gone in seconds.
Ask it, if it gave you all the info at the fast food place because it wanted to eat everything you felt from people, and you only felt what is on the menu... what it already had consent to take? So no fear of overwhelm from empathy, say YES to the vortex doing its thing and all that stuff is gone in seconds and everybody has a better day!
Vampire walks into a fast food place. Feeds on all the staff and customers in 10 seconds, leaving them all feeling better. Vortex took the fast food thing quite literal. ;) This also representative of its sense of humour eh? Go into a restaurant and it shows you who is on the menu! Vampire humour...
I gave my dakini a sense of humour cloned from Mae West and Gracie Allen, to prepare her for being around people. It seems to have rubbed off on them all. Gracie was a towering genius comedienne and her innocent clown style fits so well with their childlike nature. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AlFCKZkeBrg (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AlFCKZkeBrg)
Quote from: TheFifth on Jun 25, 2018, 04:15:39 PMInterestingly, grounding has become much easier now. I always wondered why it felt so difficult before--so much resistance around the power-chakra that no entity-clearing would clear.
No entity clearing or exorcism or psychic surgery can affect the vortex. Cannot surrender what Goddess gave you in the first place. You see, the old agreement to silence has hit an expiry date. Vampires are much worse off, for not knowing what they have. Everyone is better off, when they are set on track and get to work, being themselves. Quote from: TheFifth on Jun 25, 2018, 04:15:39 PM
I fed the vortex quite a bit last night; imagined a local cemetery and invited it to take some lint off some family members if it saw fit to do so. Was met with insights about the other side of the wormhole, non-duality and a huge energy rush and ended up unable to sleep (lol). Woke up to more empathic barrage. At this time, it feels easier to feed it with ambient stuff--stuff outside my own energy body. Is it sort of like normal karma clearing, surrendering it all piece-by-piece but to something different?
Rocketship to ascension. I went though something similar, during the process of becoming the planet. Enormous appetite for energy to fuel the transformation alchemy. Your transformation is powered, fueled by all the transmuted karma stuff the vortex is taking in from everywhere. It is all, gas in your tank. You may have read my telling WZ that the vortex might invite her to jump through it at some point, yours pulling you through already.
Yes, the vortex is intent on clearing every bit of karma off you, even going into the past, time travelling to alter events of your childhood, to clear it all, to purify your body for ascension. It is also cleaning you with the pressure washer. All that transmuted energy incoming, blasting you like a firehose raises your vibe too.
There is another thing too, human attainment.
With empathy, there is a tendency for stuff to only stick if it is resonant with your own stuff. If you are so purified you are transparent then you are nothing and so nothing sticks. "In the world but not of it." Does not stop the vortex feeding, but gives a serene mind.
The "Karma Yoga" benefit of Karma Vampire Games, and Shaman work is that when the stuff clears from them, the resonant stuff lifts from you too. For example, if you had abandonment issues and you did empathic healing or KVG on someone with abandonment issues, it would resolve it in you both. Same for the vortex purifying you. It has an excel spreadsheet of all your remaining karma and its finding and eating resonant stuff in others to clear it from you, plus you get the energy benefit of feeding.
I did not seek to become a healer, I was sort of blackmailed into it because sometimes the only escape from someone else's pain was to help them feel better so we both could. Goddess gets it right, helping others helped me in a longer term sense of purifying me.
Part of a shaman guide's job, and the mechanism of the kind of dangerous death gate energy is to keep the shaman purified. Death gate energy responds to any trace of fear in a shaman by magnifying it so it is noticed and surrendered. For non shamans who resist it, its a bad trip to a paranoid place because the death gate energy is relentless and it multiplies when resisted. I do not share death gate energy... but the guide sometimes substitutes it for life force if someone aggressive tries to feed on that without my consent. Kind of extreme but it sure sours the milk for them.
Quote from: TheFifth on Jun 25, 2018, 04:15:39 PM
Ascension is a step I'm open to taking if that's what's ultimately in the cards. I get the impression I'll just get there if/when I'm at that point: I'll just be there. Difficult to explain, but that's all my intuition has to say about it.
Yes that is accurate. The transition is often un-noticed at first. There are people who are ascended and do not know it.
I remember once, ( before FST was written) one of my tribe complained about people always bumping into him. They would apologise and say they did not see him. He thought that was a lame excuse and a lie and was annoyed that folks be so rude. I had neglected to tell him that ascended people are frequently, and literally invisible to people who are not ascended. We are nothing, and living in a higher dimensional vibration, so we register as nothing to those who are unaware of it. We are still present to be bumped into. Be careful crossing the street...
I was meditating being nothing, at a stop light once and got rear-ended by a woman in a big commercial truck to claimed she did not see me. She must have seen me when she pulled up behind me...? Beware of becoming invisible, in traffic. Moderate whiplash got me physio to help with computer geek slouch.
Guidance once said "Vibrating faster than the speed of light." Transparent to photons? Quote from: TheFifth on Jun 25, 2018, 04:15:39 PM
Will the vortex take me there faster than I maybe planned? Still feels like it comes down to my readiness to let go; but great potential--an invitation of sorts--feels present. And letting go of all this stuff--in my case, feeding on and digesting it properly--feels so much better, anyway.
I thoroughly tested the vortexes to see if they were worthy to play the role they claimed to have evolved for. I put them through a lot of tests, checking and verifying with the shamans and some gifted FST grad students. Some tests they did not like, "well tough luck you don't get me to advertise for you until I am convinced of your worthiness to do the work." At one point they got upset with them for a month, because I thought they had done something manipulative but it turned out the vampire it came through had not been clear about what he meant.
My first clue that they are quantum beings came early. I asked the vortex in a quite wonderful sang I was working with to do some cleansing on me. Conversation at the speed of thought I cannot translate, but when it realized most of what was on me had been given by others it split into many that flew off in all directions to get the rest from the sources. Being many places at once is a quantum thing.
Yet at the same time, the concepts of splitting and travelling are duality based, translations for the benefit of my linear human mind. A non dual quantum being's experience and reality of space and time are very different.
Vortex guides do not want to go into the light, that got me suspicious, because it is the basic test but they are much more wired into the body than other guides. They are willing to go when they can take the vampire and body with them: Ascension.
Your questions are really helping me to get all this information of years of research out of my head and into words.
Blossom: Sorry, I did not mean to shut you down. ADD has some social disability too, so I know what its like to miss the memo about what is appropriate.
Paraphrasing what someone said about you without revealing their identity is relatively innocuous, though it could be a violation depending on the content. I often do that, referencing my vamp work. To publish their actual words, even anonymously without consent, is a violation of copyrights and privacy. I am extremely sensitive to the tea room vibe and felt it from your quotes, like they were yelling at me "We did not consent to be here" and I would like to delete them if you don't mind.
Authors retain copyrights, even if the time is paid for. I usually do sessions in chat because it is good for the client to keep a text copy for reference but if they published it, it would be disrespectful of my copyrights and somewhat indiscreet... I am very private with the contents of consultations, and expect similar respect.
I have had people publish personal emails I sent advising them and I do not like it. Does not mean what I said is bad or embarrassing, but I am a writer, words are my work product. My work being used for a purpose not intended, without my permission.
I remember one person going through a particularly difficult time, I gave him info on ego death I normally would not share, only to find the whole email published on a kundalini warnings website without my consent. I went out on a limb for the guy and felt betrayed, I would not have taken the time to help him, for free, if I had known he was going to do that. He may have had the best intentions seeking to share the info to help others, but that was not his call to make.
You saw I was careful to get consent from WZ before publishing the chat, even here in a members only space. Sigmund and Gustaf are Lineage and gave me wide consent, years ago, to publish anything from a chat that might be helpful to others.
Regarding the other. You have been around quite a while, on and off and I cannot recall you ever mentioning anything about your love life. I do not really understand autism, to know how autism and your other stuff affects that. I do not pry, people share what they want to. I have never gotten any sexual vibe off you, that I can think of.
Previously I wrote how some sangs are so horrified to discover what they are, at puberty, that they repress it so deep it is beyond conscious knowledge, hidden from everyone. I think my old dad might actually be one. What is repressed, comes up ugly and the abusive power games he played instead, feeding off his children left scars on us all. That a sex vampire might be so horrified by a succubus reflection as to deny it and repress her libido completely, seems possible, to me, but I would not claim to know if any of that is true for you.
It is interesting, the sub types and vortexes. The portal of a shaman is just below the heart, and the heart is a non dual chakra. That wormhole leads to the underworld, into the bardo journey and the hells people make for themselves, while still alive.
The sex vampire vortex is aimed at the second chakra, which not just about sex but also the emotional center, relationships, the sacrum has the tribal stuff. Most sex vamps can feed on emotions, PTSD, flirtation and aggression as well as sex. If the feeding is not wholly consensual it can hit the power chakra just as any non consensual disrespect of boundaries would.
Certainly been time traveling a lot the last few days, flooded with memories from childhood and even having old patterns resurfacing; I thought they were gone but I must have just repressed or “shelled†them away. It’s interesting because the field I’m going into is going to involve counseling people with various emotional disturbances, and the internship I’m doing right now has me going into jails and courtrooms with heavy emotional content.
Feeling that heaviness seems like this constant invitation to feed, yet it’s waiting for me to give my own invitation, or consent, and stop resisting or “reacting†to the shear power of the incoming impressions. Anyway, I think I’ll get the hang of this, right now I just feel like the vortex was very conversational when I first discovered it and now it’s kinda chilling out again and having those old “swallowing issues.†Interesting, metaphorically speaking, because my whole life I’ve had a rare allergic condition called eosinophillic esophagitis that caused me issues with swallowing.
I guess it’s the whole “life as video-game†thing where everything’s trying to tell me something. Funny with the takeout restaurant thing, didn’t even put that together when I typed the post. Looks like the vortex isn’t as silent as I’m saying it is; I just haven’t been hearing it.
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Re: Might be in Trouble, Might not be (http://fire-serpent.com/tearoom/index.php/topic,1605.msg7070))
Quote from: Mystress on Jun 25, 2018, 11:25:52 AM
Quote from: Blossom on Jun 25, 2018, 12:56:28 AM
Thanks for sharing, it's all very interesting. I'll have to sit with it for a bit. When I asked if I am one of the psi-vampires, I got "something like that". I did the grounding exercise and asked again, again I got "something like that".
I found the rest of this quite hard to follow. I get that solar plexus means power chakra, but the sacrum chakras and the second chakra are not the same thing, and I was sometimes not sure which you were referring to.
Are you saying the sacrum chakras and the second chakra are not the same, Mystress? What is the location of the second and sacral chakras?
It kinda makes sense that the vampire gift manifests at puberty. That was when I started to face hostility and rejection from my peers, and I never knew why people had such a poor opinion of me when I never said or did anything to warrant it other than just being me, a little quiet and very studious. I didn't realize that just sitting there quietly was poking people's karma. Later in high school I developed an attitude of goth bitchiness, which didn't help my reputation for being strange. In recent years I have been poking people by studying and working in mental health where there is an abundance of snack food. People have always been telling me their problems, even strangers on the bus, so I figured I may as well get paid for it! I knew I was an empath, but didn't realize I was a psi vamp too, even though all the signs were there. Thank you to Mystress, Gustaf and Simund for leading me to meet my vampire guide. And thank you, Goddess! :)
Zephyr
Quote from: WhimsicalZephyr on Jun 29, 2018, 02:41:52 PM
Are you saying the sacrum chakras and the second chakra are not the same, Mystress? What is the location of the second and sacral chakras?
First, thank you for reminding me that I wrote the missing chakra k teacher pages as chakra temple notecards in secondlife. When you asked about them I thought, "oh crap I have not written those yet and do not want to now!" but yeah I did write them for the chakra temple and forgot!
The second chakra is below the navel, in the spine it is above the sacrum. The sacrum chakras are sometimes called the secondary second chakras, but they are all about tribe and feeling you belong on the planet as a human.
In session my test question is "Ever feel like you were born on the wrong planet?" because if the birth is not normal, (caesarian, breech or preemie) then the sacrum chakras are not activated. No coincidence that the rise of so called "Indigo children" coincides with the rise in popularity of caesarians for the scheduled convenience. I was breech and a week late. My sacrum chakras activated in 1997, one side with my shaman grad and the other side from High Priestess 3rd degree initiation. Having known what the before and after feels like, after is definitely better. Unactivated sacrum gives a peculiar loneliness of always feeling like an outsider. Quote from: WhimsicalZephyr on Jun 29, 2018, 02:41:52 PM
In recent years I have been poking people by studying and working in mental health where there is an abundance of snack food. People have always been telling me their problems, even strangers on the bus, so I figured I may as well get paid for it! I knew I was an empath, but didn't realize I was a psi vamp too, even though all the signs were there. Thank you to Mystress, Gustaf and Sigmund for leading me to meet my vampire guide. And thank you, Goddess! :)
Zephyr
I think you will do well at it, and chewing the crazy off people is a huge mercy for them.
I noticed some time ago in my favorite tea house that when a young lady working there went around and was cleaning the tables or the whole place when closing, that she also did clean energy. She was a spiritual person and likely loved that place.
Then I noticed on other days some other people doing the cleaning and nothing happened. Those were just sort of people not fully there, present. Not fully in the body, they did not even know why the are doing the cleaning. They just did it because they have been told to it. So they did it even physically in not very good way, inattentive to details.
Obviously the whole atmosphere of the place suffered. The loving lady that did the cleaning did not do anything on purpose. I think it was natural to her and is a natural human ability. To really take good care of a place and make it beautiful and nice.
A female kind of intuitive way.
As you mentioned earlier Mystress about empathy, with metaphor of ones energy body as temple where some visitors come and occasionally bring mud on their shoes. It seems that the tea house and bar as well is akin to a sort of temple where people come to let go of their worries and let it go.

 However where Im leading with it is that I noticed that the historic center of our town is increasingly polluted in emotional way because of tourism, aside of stuff that is lingering here for hundreds of years.
Im sure that traveling to another country creates shift in ones ego so some things are easier to let go or to be seen. People get perhaps a window to release some stuff normally not easy to let go. Perhaps mixed with the fact that energy is heightened and or that people are perhaps more stressed out. Or maybe coupled with much more frequent use of alcohol then usual.
 And some perhaps rush from place to place so fast that they place emotional anchors hoping to return at later time. So stuff somehow gets stuck.
So my inner perception is that there is lot of emotional trash lingering in the streets, more then the environment can cope with. The environment then can affect other people in it.
So a lovely tourist destination or historic city center can also be a temple of sorts.
Why is energy lingering and not dispersing is the question.
 For sure there is plenty of energy for Vampires.
One of the curious things about Vampires is the ease with which they are able to transmute lots of energy and also large areas.
Greetings,
Duu
Duu said >>I noticed some time ago in my favorite tea house that when a young lady working there went around and was cleaning the tables or the whole place when closing, that she also did clean energy. She was a spiritual person and likely loved that place.
Then I noticed on other days some other people doing the cleaning and nothing happened. Those were just sort of people not fully there, present. Not fully in the body, they did not even know why the are doing the cleaning. They just did it because they have been told to it. So they did it even physically in not very good way, inattentive to details.
Obviously the whole atmosphere of the place suffered. The loving lady that did the cleaning did not do anything on purpose. I think it was natural to her and is a natural human ability. To really take good care of a place and make it beautiful and nice.
I have had some homecare workers that do the same thing, doing their work with care and consideration for my comfort. One homecare worker even used to arrange my food artistically, which I really appreciated. Another lady used to sing as she worked. Dealing with a lot of different home care workers in Vancouver was stressful, so I really loved it when I had workers who take care in their jobs. Made all the difference to my comfort and was much appreciated.
Zephyr
The second chakra is below the navel, in the spine it is above the sacrum. The sacrum chakras are sometimes called the secondary second chakras, but they are all about tribe and feeling you belong on the planet as a human.
How far below the navel is the second chakra? I feel a lot of energy a few inches below my navel, and when someone says or does something I don't like I often feel like I've been kicked in that area. If someone says something I like I feel a glow in that area and extending downwards.
In session my test question is "Ever feel like you were born on the wrong planet?" because if the birth is not normal, (caesarian, breech or preemie) then the sacrum chakras are not activated. No coincidence that the rise of so called "Indigo children" coincides with the rise in popularity of caesarians for the scheduled convenience. I was breech and a week late. My sacrum chakras activated in 1997, one side with my shaman grad and the other side from High Priestess 3rd degree initiation. Having known what the before and after feels like, after is definitely better. Unactivated sacrum gives a peculiar loneliness of always feeling like an outsider.
As far as I know I was not a breech birth, but my neck x-rays indicate some congenital damage to the cervical spine. I have often felt like I didn't belong on this planet, that I didn't fit in anywhere. I remember once when I was having a psychotic episode I remembered being born and feeling rejected by my mother; however, it could have just been psychosis and not a true memory. I often felt rejected by my mother growing up so it's possible I was projecting backwards in time.
I think you will do well at it, and chewing the crazy off people is a huge mercy for them.
Chewing it off myself is a huge relief! Depression and psychosis aren't fun. I dropped out of working in mental health because I was taking on too much of people's stuff and it was making me crazier. It's nice to be able to transmute the crazy through my vampire vortex. It makes reading Facebook a whole lot easier!
Okay, that makes sense. Thank you for taking the time to clarify that point. Yup, it's okay to delete what I copied plus pasted above.
I don't seem to have much interest in the chakras below the power chakra.
Did I have a curiousity about blood emerge around puberty, perhaps I did? I am not sure if I wanted to try other peoples blood. But I did try my own. I did read a lot of vampire-fiction in my teens and early twenties, although that may be irrelevant.
I don't feel sexually interested in people. Individuals with Autism can be interested in others or they might not be, some might mimic interest to be socially accepted. I think that also goes for the act itself, some enjoy it whereas others find it too much on a sensory level. I mean, there are individuals with Autism who get married and have children (and subsequently children with Autism). There are also other (males mostly, but I am sure some females) who get into trouble because of inappropriate sexualised behaviours. We have a high percentage that identifies as LGBQTIA. I think the complexity of Autism is understanding boundaries and what is safe in relationships due to the lack of social engagement system. I know this is a key topic taught to adolescent and young adults these days.
I seem to have issues with intimacy. I don't seek out a partner because of the energy that I would need to exert into forming and maintaining a relationships (this extends to friendships - I have been expending a lot of my mental energy on getting other things in order first), and the pattern of a lot of members in my family who seem to get stuck in unhealthy relationships. I might be holding onto other peoples stuff, but just the idea of being with anyone makes my stomach contract. I just feel a huge recoil and terror.
For example:
0) My maternal great grandmother and grandfather (grandfather died in a winter boating accident and my grandmother wasn't a very good parent - my grandmother was a parentified child)
1) My other maternal great-grandmother and grandfather (great grandmother was considered a hostile and terrible lady and grandfather was more kindly)
2) My maternal grandmother and grandfather (grandfather was very abusive and scarred everyone in the family)
3) My paternal grandfather and grandmother (grandfather was a cheater and abusive, grandma is very passive)
4) Mother and Father (Father was abusive and possibly Bipolar, and my Mum has her own stuff to contend with)
5) Aunt (paternal) and her husband (She is the difficult one and I am not too sure about her partner)
6) Sister and her last long-term partner (partner was emotionally abusive and had wandering eyes)
7) Aunt J (maternal side) and her 1st Husband (an abusive relationship which my aunt left)
8) Aunt J (maternal side) and her 2nd Husband (abusive relationship and my aunt is "stuck")
9) Uncle J (maternal side) and his wife (wife is an alcoholic and has done a lot of "crazy" things).
10) Aunt B (maternal side) and her husband (Husband slept with his cousin and had a child around the same time my Aunt was pregnant, although he got into a severe car accident afterward. They're still together)
11) Aunt I (maternal side) and her husband (Her husband is actually quite hardworking and it's my aunt who is considered the really strange one)
12) Cousin K (maternal side) and his wife (Works quite hard for the family in Sweden, wife sleeps around b/c he's not around)
13) Cousin L (works with Cousin K, so his wife may do something similar to K).
14) Cousin M (Her partner is quite hardworking but she is not and it doesn't look like her relationship is going to hold - young parent).
15) Cousin A (Works very hard but seemed to get involved with someone as old as her dad who already had 5 kids. A is starting to get a lot of health problems e.g. hashimotos).
Not saying that this is the same as "sexual" energy as expressed in FST or sangs but I do have trouble differentiating between that (on some level) and "intimate" or "sexual" relationships - if that makes sense. It's the Autistic rigid (black and white) thinking. As I said, I don't like looking at the chakras below my power chakra.
Just a quick question about empty spaces (vacuum), when you're asking the vortex guide to transmute things do you also need to fill the empty spaces left behind as you would if you were surrendering stuff to goddess?
Vampire Mystic Academy meeting Tuesday July 17 at 9pm PDT, slt on Kundalini Mystic Isle in secondlife.
Sorry if the time is awkward, it is set for when our senior vampire, Vlad is available.
Come to the meeting if you are, or think you might be a vampire. One way I have of checking if someone is a vampire, is to ask the vortex in another vampire. This is a good opportunity for that. Other than that, the meeting is for vampires only, a focus group.
Blossom: Just a quick question about empty spaces (vacuum), when you're asking the vortex guide to transmute things do you also need to fill the empty spaces left behind as you would if you were surrendering stuff to goddess?
The vortexes seem to do it automatically, you can ask for it to do so if you want to be sure.
I don't seem to have much interest in the chakras below the power chakra.
Well, when ever there is an avoidance behavior, we have to wonder what is being avoided? Are you walled off below the waist because of autism, family history, or because your child self tried to lock up some scary monster?
Some people are simply asexual. Including me, lately. Menopausal hormones, I assume... The body is still responsive but delicate and easily tired. The mind is busy elsewhere.
Did I have a curiosity about blood emerge around puberty, perhaps I did?
I think most people already know what their blood tastes like, long before that age. Human instinct to suck on a paper cut, kids lick their wounds and taste their own blood. Girls relationship with their own blood, changes at puberty when it starts pouring out of them one week every month. What curiosities might arise from that change, are unpredictable.
I would like to add some observations.
I suggested to some Sangs that instead of word “feeding†or “food†they could simply use the world “medicine†or “catalyst†or “activator†etc. As ingesting a spoon of blood every now and then has nothing to do with food or feeding. And blood itself has really not food like qualities in this context. And the whole situation is just not that. Thus the linguistic construct makes some members that are weaker in mind more crazy.

However they were all infuriated.
Anyway I was not even entertained by that discussion.
 Later I needed to bring some science research to show the facts that blood does not contain broad spectrum of sufficient nutrients so that one can live only on it. Again to no success.
So lets call it a condiment then?

I saw that using the whole vampire mythology, as is, something that mostly very new and cobbled together is something that can do more harm then good. As western mass-media vampire is more of a symbol of ego then anything else. Or better even a teenager ego. Isolated, not fitting in, in darkness away from society. Society is something less then they are and so on. Hyper sexual yet somehow unable to really “connectâ€. So for a confused teenager who is on some kind of path of self discovery and maybe is or is not a vampire, this mythical image is more feeding his or her problems. It mirrors them as well, thus its resonant and enticing, but offers little to none mythological solutions. In a way that many old wholesome myths do.
No wonder that black magic is then so prevalent. As from the point of mythology it makes sense.
If we see the person with the vortex as a sort of shamanic healer. Or perhaps a new type of shaman more suitable for city environments and current civilization situation. Then we have a image that is more image of a servant. Someone that has a clear place in society and is part of it. Very much as a shaman. Most shamans, there are exceptions, don't see themselves as a high status beings. They cant as their nature just keeps them on the straight and narrow.

So linguistically speaking the word vampire is burdened. The idea that Mystress present is nothing like the Vampire that the user of such label has in his mind or from mythology. In fact it has nothing to do with vampires, people taking in and transmuting energy is cool. But everybody does to various levels, they just do it differently. So its nothing to sooth their ego needs.

So Mystress is in a way attacking their ego construct. Construct that likely gives some sense of safety and specialness etc.
Suggesting that they should throw it away for a ego construct of vampire healer. Where the vampire is just a label for some special energy gift. Gift that has nothing to do with western vampire mythology etc. This by itself looks like tough nut to crack. As even with vortex help it has characteristic of a standard spiritual path of transformation. To which the person is apparently not interested and is even is unsure if any benefits would come out of it.

I heard Mystress jokingly use the word somewhere, the “shit eaterâ€. Which actually occasionally appears in some old myths or tantric literature, usually connected with witches, dakinis and etc. Usually with forces extremely wise yet also forces you would not likely want to meet, less you would die, or so it is said. Who just dance on the graveyard at odd hours. I mean it just fits and is to the point.

One can feel the ego, memetic difference between the words “vampire†and “shit eaterâ€
I would find that second label a more noble designation. Saner and safer in many ways.
Yet it is clear to me that one is unlikely win any converts to this label.
Duu
Duu wrote:
One can feel the ego, memetic difference between the words “vampire†and “shit eaterâ€
I would find that second label a more noble designation. Saner and safer in many ways.
Yet it is clear to me that one is unlikely win any converts to this label.
Turd Burglars.
Annoying vampires is like shooting fish in a barrel. So easy. Especially, trolling them and telling them how they need to change to please you.
I feel the opposite, real vampires and the fear of them is the source of the mythology, like bad propaganda targeting a minority group. Why else would some vampires choose to stay hidden even when they are in a very safe space?
QuoteDuu - Why is energy lingering and not dispersing is the question. For sure there is plenty of energy for Vampires.
I am not sure if I can explain what 'hunger' feels like for a vampire to non-vamps. All humans get hungry - for food, affection, energy, knowledge, etc. Vampire hunger is... I don't want to say 'more intense' but feels more like 'all-consuming-madness' if it can be described through words. Eat or be eaten. As Mystress has pointed out, well-fed vamps can be fantastic healers (aka energy cleaners). If the vamp is not in surrender to his/her Divine Beloved and is instead acting from ego, then the vamp's energy body stagnates karma. What is not surrendered creates blockages and over time things start to snag when the vamp feeds. Nonetheless, even a vamp who is not in surrender can clean up a lot of energy (and some vamps learn with experience 'what not to eat').
When a vamp is in complete surrender to his/her Divine Beloved, then 'the world is your buffet' as Mystress put it. When in surrender, a vamp can clear mountains of karma-energy-debris accumulated over centuries and transmute it all into light without batting an eyelid. Freewill is Goddess law. Vamps have the potential but they have to consent out of freewill through surrender. Also, as Mystress pointed out, some places (like Auschwitz for instance) retain their painful memories as important lessons so that we never repeat them. Sometimes people are not yet done grieving for their loss and so fragments of energy linger around. Sometimes people are frozen in shock - either do not know that they are stuck or how to get 'unstuck' even though they feel the pain. And then there are groups that practice rituals glorifying past pain (sometimes in the form of 'ancestor worship') and it feeds the martyr ego. Negative energy lingers despite so many hungry vampires because people hold on to their pain for various reasons (even though this may seem irrational and/or counter intuitive).
Ascended beings are quantum - they are everywhere and now-here. So they can take pain, transmute it, and clear energy debris without disturbing the suffering person (consent happens between the person's guide and the ascended being) for the highest good of all. Healing can then happen at a pace that is right for the individual in accordance with their higher guidance. Love is the highest quantum energy state and ascended quantum beings are incapable of harming anything in existence. Of course, one can always fall out of grace and grow new ego personalities about why they are so special (or as Mystress puts it 'hero trips')!
QuoteDuu - I heard Mystress jokingly use the word somewhere, the “shit eaterâ€. Which actually occasionally appears in some old myths or tantric literature, usually connected with witches, dakinis and etc. Usually with forces extremely wise yet also forces you would not likely want to meet, less you would die, or so it is said. Who just dance on the graveyard at odd hours. I mean it just fits and is to the point.
There is lots of myth and some truth about this. In India, the Aghori tantric tradition practices rituals that are considered unacceptable by most Hindu norms. Ghora means 'terror' and aghora means 'beyond terror'. Aghoris meditate on cremation grounds in front of burning corpses. Some eat parts of the corpse, shit, and/or anything that is offered. Aghoris smoke ganja and walk around naked. Many smear ashes of burnt corpses all over their bodies and use an empty skull as their drinking/food bowl. All of these practices are considered 'extreme' and 'taboo' by society. The tantric lesson behind these practices is to realize non-duality - witnessing life in the presence of death and acceptance of one's own mortality. Of course, one does not have to eat a corpse or shit in order to realize this. These extreme practices are not necessary but they do serve a purpose for some people in their specific context. Media focus and public interest is always about the weird stuff that they can make colorful documentaries about and sell as exotic.
Aghoris worship Shiva as their Guru. In Shaivism, God
is Love. All the demons, ghosts, ghouls, undead, and other outcast creatures are all considered Shiva's children when they surrender. God's love shines on everyone the same. :) In many ways, aghoris were important social revolutionaries in the evolution of Hindu theology and spirituality. Organized religion from all over the world has a tendency to demonize those that don't fit within specific templates. Aghoris by their way of life poked social taboos and broke caste boundaries. Many great social leaders and revolutionary thinkers in India were students of aghoris, who wish to remain anonymous.
The tantric lesson in lots of aghori practices is to see beyond the illusion of duality - to face terror and see beyond terror. It is often emphasized in Tantric traditions that the 'face of God/dess' is terrifying if you approach through ego and compassionate if you approach through surrender. Facing unconditional love pulls out all your fears - no place to hide - and must be surrendered. In aghori tradition, death, shit, and decay represent fear of the ego and hence the rituals. Enlightened aghoris are known to clean the energy of their surroundings just by their presence. Therefore, a lot of folks seek their blessing and touch even though aghoris are usually socially ostracized.
PS: I am not suggesting that all aghoris are enlightened or that aghori practices are required for anyone. Just providing some context.
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Pip (my vampire guide) likes to tell me 'Don't fear!' I think Pip is trying to have me surrender my fears more often. I still struggle with depression, but I can get myself out of it faster now. I think by saying "Don't fear!' Pip is also guiding me towards ascension. I know that I can't ascend with any fear and that my karma is proportional to the amount of fear I have.
I also think a lot of my depression is food poisoning combined with self-pity because my power chakra is polluted and overwhelmed. I think my depression sometimes comes from exhaustion as well. I tend to do a boom-bust thing where I go go go for a few days, then spend the next two days in bed. After sleeping for a long time and not using my lightbox, getting sunlight, or grounding I feel down and depressed and it takes me a while to climb out of it. When I exhaust myself doing things in the community, I find that I don't have as much time to surrender my stuff and other's stuff to Pip, and when combined with physical exhaustion it takes its toll on me.
Sorry I missed the vamp chat last night, I was exhausted and needed to sleep! :)
WZ
Good scoop on the ring. At that price, buy a bunch, that black coating on stainless steel is prone to show scratches.
I was actually intending to show examples of discreet ankh rings, I expect individuals will shop for themselves for their own fashion preferences and budget. Getting a reminder ring has been very helpful for the vamps who tried it so far.
It is also a bit of discreet cultural signaling, with plausible deniability. Good way to meet like minds, and helpful donors. Most people don't know ankh is the symbol of vampires unless they have some knowledge of vamp culture, truth or fiction. Iconic, the vampires in the movie "The Hunger" (David Bowie, Catherine Deneuve (http://hippiedeluxe.blogspot.com/2010/05/hunger.html) and Susan Sarandon, wow!) wore ankh pendants with a blade hidden in the stem. They were fangless.
Just like most people don't know that wearing my keychain near my left hip signals that I am a FemDom. Only a sub or another Dom would recognise the symbolism of my 2.5" ring keychain being hung from a large silver snap hook, (bondage device) or that it includes a handcuff key on one side, visible and accessable (other bondage device and signals a safe Miss) or the long antique skeleton keys in the center that hang lower than the others. They don't open anything but evoke imagery of dungeon cell doors and cages to the kink-minded, and silly goth pirate fashion to everyone else.
Noticed a store detective/security watching me as I opened bottles of shampoo to sniff the scent. His gaze didn't seem suspicious so I shrugged at it. It was the keychain. Few minutes later the lonely divorced subbie asked me out for a coffee date.
I know that I can't ascend with any fear and that my karma is proportional to the amount of fear I have.
Well, there is a little more to it than that. Karma, is fear. Free will is binary, love or fear. Karma is made of all the times you chose fear. Choosing fear is making more karma but also puts you into a state of resistance where what is trying to be cleared does not flow. When you are well grounded and free from fear, that is optimum for karma clearing and vortex work. Being in a fearful state really throws a wrench into things... but you can invite it to take the fear and its sources. Ask it to take anything that interferes with your grounding, and staying grounded. You cannot keep investing energy in choosing fear. Becoming fearless is part of grounding discipline.
Sorry I missed the vamp chat last night, I was exhausted and needed to sleep!
Yeah, I guessed you were sleeping when you did not respond to my ims. Was funny to cam to you and see your av passed out on the rug in the tantra temple. Only three of us again so I am open to suggestions for a more universally convenient chat time.
Heh, I used to carry a handcuff key on my keychain when I was into kink. I still prefer to wear things on the left side of the body, it feels more resonant for me even though I've subbed in the past.
Yeah, sometimes when I go down for a nap I teleport to the tantra temple and sleep on the rug or the hammock. That are of Kundalini mystic isle feels very chill and nap-like. Occasionally I pass out in the FST temple or sitting against the Tree of Life. Question: you know the purple ball of light next to the Tree of Life? Is that a representation of the violet flame? I love flying into the middle of it and meditating. :)
As some of you may saw I I replied to this post earlier informing Mystress that I may be a vamp because my sensitive friend kept calling me that and that I had noticed some of my vampire tendencies since he said that.
Quote from: Mystress on Jun 23, 2018, 12:28:45 PM
I do not like to tell people what they are, like that. I especially avoid it with vampires. As WZ wrote, I led her to discover it for herself. That is what I do. Typically I have them look for the stuff within themselves, not even describing what they are looking for. I do not like it when people ask me if they are a shaman either.
So I went to the vamp meeting and we figured out that I am not a psi vamp, sang or a sexual vamp but that I am simply acting like a vampire by feeding off of other peoples life force, without their consent, which is a very aggressive act. Usually, when kids go through adolescence they learn how to feed themselves through their roots and stop needing energy from their parents, they become dependent on themselves. However, I never learned how to properly feed myself during adolescence.
I was a smart and cheery kid growing up until middle school and highschool where I experienced some bullying and rejection from my peers. I can remember a few instances where I was threatened to be beat up by classmates and just general bullying that I think most people experience in their school careers. I took these rather common experiences to heart. These instances made me feel anxious and scared that I was going to be beat up, bullied or rejected. I began projecting those same anxious feelings onto future events that were not actually threatening and developed social anxiety. Common things like talking to a stranger, being in a classroom or in the presence of others became painful. In short, I was not grounded, I felt like I wasn't enough to face life.
I am 21 now and still struggle with many of the problems I faced in the past. Now I have another problem to overcome, I need to learn to grow my roots. I am still struggling with using my own energy instead of feeding off of other people but my drug abuse has stopped, the depression is gone and I am doing better with relationships.
Thankfully, Mystress showed me how I can learn how to feed myself properly, I used the technique today and will continue to do so so I can grow strong roots and stop being dependent on other peoples energy because this practice teaches me to be dependent on my own energy. Which I am very grateful for.
The good news is that learning to wean myself off of using other peoples energy will not take too long, with practice and dedication. I am looking forward to the change that will come with this practice. I also found that this grounding practice helps me get in touch with my shadow side, I am learning to make my shadow conscious and learning to use my darkside for good :)
Thank you Mystress for this practice and Thank you Gopi for the insights on the nature of anxiety and my own anxiety.
Thank you for posting some closure to your earlier query. I was glad to see you in the chat. That is part of the purpose of the vamp chats, for people who are wondering to get checked out. Vampires can detect other vampires more easily than I can. Like the vortexes are all talking on the same channel. I can listen in, but I don't get the visceral reaction vamps feel in the presence of kin.
I would like to add, how this pattern is so like a drug addiction. You feed to psyche yourself up before and during a social interaction to keep the social anxiety at bay- be all sparkly charismatic and it is a rush, but its later when the rush has faded and fatigue sets in, you get the hangover from their karma stuff plus some karma penalty for the theft. Karma is all, fragments of ego identity and emotions, plus the fear that made it karma. Coalesces into blockages showing patterns of anxiety, depression, mood swings, physical pain and stiffness because it manifests in the body as tension. The addict goes looking for another hit to recapture the rush and feel better. The more the karma noise from other people builds up in the body, the worse they feel and the more energy they need to recapture the rush.
It is a really bad downward spiral, suicidal and I am really glad you are pulling out of that tailspin. Your presence felt so much better when you were filling yourself with chi from the sun.
Before that... well, knowing the effect you had on me is seeing the proof of a power to steal and why you do not want to fall into using it again. Forgiven, because it was unconscious and because you needed to see it to have strength of determination to break the pattern. Now that it is conscious... The line that came to mind was "Do it again and I will pound you flat like chicken parmigana!" Sounds like a line from some comedy gangster movie like "Johnny Dangerously." Don't do that again, to anyone ok? You are not that kind of guy.
I do wonder, how much of the pain was empathy with the shape you are in. Gopi's vortex found you delicious so you got big help with purifying the past noise. Almost a fresh start, though I am sure there is plenty for you to process and get insights from.
Incidentally, your delight (and relief!) in the purity of the energy you got from the sun, like cool water from a mountain glacier stream... was another indication you are not a vampire. Vampires would find it kind of bland, they prefer energy that is tragedy flavoured, with crazy sprinkled on top and some fear of death sauce.
I need to learn to grow my roots. I am still struggling with using my own energy instead of feeding off of other people but my drug abuse has stopped, the depression is gone and I am doing better with relationships.
I was struggling, I do remember mentioning roots but I don't think I explained it. So I will, for everyone.
The grounding I teach to children is to imagine being a tree, with strong deep roots. Taking in sunshine through every leaf, and nourished by the earth. They are too young for kundalini, they do not benefit from a grounding cord into the core, but they do feel better when rooted. Sometimes with a flower, the crown opening makes them more receptive to learning. Another reason to get grounded before every lesson.
I have found that people suffering emotional instability due to excess empathy just need the roots. Deep wide roots of a big old oak tree. Roots reaching along under the grass, taking up the rain and the minerals. They don't have to be crazy big (one overachiever immediately wrapped them all around the planet, useless) just what would be normal for an old oak. The big taproot, thick and strong down the center, growing down so deep,branching, anchoring it against all storms. Focus on that one. Yes, everyone. Try it. Imagine it there below you, part of you, and meditate on it until you feel a distinct shift in your sense of self.
The radio of all the noise and chaos fades and switches off. In feeling the roots and knowing the taproot, you discover who you are. The real guy, underneath all the noise. What he wants, his essential integrity, how he feels about things. You will feel a shift when all the external influences switch off and you become your real self. You can think of him, as who you are, as a man, an adult. You will feel it as soon as you feel the shift, and you will know, you want nothing more than to be him for the rest of your life. It is like coming home, to yourself. Your unique personality. You have barely had a chance to know him, too busy worrying about how you appear to others and struggling with your emotions.
So it is not so much a matter of growing your roots, your unconscious mind and imagination already know what they look like, right? So you have grown them. Now you need to keep them in focus. Be that guy. Keep focusing on your roots.
The delayed process of weaning yourself off needing energy from other adults is also a maturation process, mentally and emotionally. I talked about the native coming of age rites where the new adult is sent off to the woods to get a vision of their new name. Your adult self is already shaped, and you don't need a name change. You need to get to know him, become him.
This is your root self. He is of instinct. We think of instinct as something primitive but it is actually sophisticated, and it does not need to think, to know so it is very decisive. Instinct has no ego but a profound and laser sense of self. He has no social anxiety, and people tend to respond positively because he is genuine.
Grounding connects you to Source, the planetary consciousness. Roots ground you into your core self.
Editing this to add:
There are a lot of techniques I know but don't teach, especially if there is potential for it to be misused. Sava refers to my teaching him to feed himself. He is forbidden to share it. He got a secret out of me because I was at the end of my rope! Taught in self defense, lol. He had unconsciously drained me so completely I was struggling to not pass out asleep and the only fix for it was to teach him to totally gorge himself on sky energy. My shaman body recovered soon after his hunger was redirected.
I am not sure I have ever taught this to an FST student before. A faint memory of maybe a chat a decade ago? I consider it a psychosis risk. Forewarned! Sava had a big capacity for energy...( he drained me and went looking for dessert!) and was so chi starved he felt skeletal. Feeding on other people's energy wrecked him but it was also, quite a workout. It is the right medicine for him. Might not be right for you.
Shaman kid, I have been instinctively stretching my ability to hold energy since my teens. Almost competitive, looking to beat the personal best. I do teach it to shamans, the guide mediates so it doesn't run them off their rails. Obviously, a competitive attitude is not a state of surrender so most people end up overloaded. It is kind of a rush too so potentially addictive.
The grounding feeds you enough.
I have not even named this technique. "Binge and purge" lol amuses me, veeery un-pc so, "flood and dump?" lol, no.
The first part of the grounding, where you fill your center... except pushing it. Trying to stretch to see how much sky energy you can cram in, until you feel like an overfilled balloon. Feeling the stretched state, the personal limits (Sava's body is getting flooded with the chi it needs to recover, -clean energy for a change-, and being reoriented to a new abundant food source.) To hit a limit, means your body has absorbed all the chi it can use. Then, instead of a slow trickle, you dump the energy all a once like pulling the cord on a laundry chute. The whole bottom of the reservoir opens up and the energy floods out, you let it all go. Relax in the resulting upward flow of Shakti like bathing in a river, letting it wash over you and through you. No resistance. I compared it to rinsing a glass by filling it and dumping it out repeatedly.
The prescription was for Sava to do it twice after grounding, followed by a regular grounding. 3x if he missed doing it on the previous grounding. That's a tougher schedule than I put shamans on! We felt his reorienting process will take 2-3 months and he won't feel a need for it after that.
For everyone else, try it if you want to, once or twice to feel it. Curiosity.
Increased energy, triggers more stuff. Monitor yourself, are you getting overloaded or a sort of karma hangover with more emotional stuff coming up after, or the next day?
I didn't teach it because you don't need it. Basic grounding is the essential thing. Stick with that. :)
There is a meditation I use on youtube that has you plant your feet about a foot deep in the earth and imagine taproots growing out of your feet. I just imagine taproots and my irritability and sensitivity to noise faded. Everything went quiet. Thank you, Mystress! :)
Grounded with extra focus on digging my oak roots into the earth and the meditation *definitely* has more kick. Much silence. Wonderful.
Yep, my landlord was mowing right next to my window and the noise faded dramatically when I imagined my roots growing into the earth. Very powerful.
Quote from: WhimsicalZephyr on Jul 20, 2018, 09:27:52 AM
There is a meditation I use on youtube that has you plant your feet about a foot deep in the earth and imagine taproots growing out of your feet. I just imagine taproots and my irritability and sensitivity to noise faded. Everything went quiet. Thank you, Mystress! :)
Yeah I did not invent the "be a tree" visualization, I am not sure anyone could claim it, its just an instinctive thing kids do. Arm branches stretched up and out, trying to grow as tall as possible. Some day cares use it as a sort of yoga stretch after naptime.
Your description of the youtube vid tells me where I need to be clearer. Imagining my feet buried in the earth feels a bit claustrophobic, like a gangster gave me cement shoes. Maybe the same one who likes to cook chicken parmigiana! Roots growing from the soles of my feet seems a bit creepy too. The area is not large enough. You end up with two taproots. I feel like I would have to pull and reroot them with every step. The visualization is too connected with the physical body, trying too hard to fit with it and becomes awkward.
Imagine a tree trunk around your body, about the width of your shoulders or hips but rounded. That gives a sense of scale relative to the body and is all the connection needed. Old oaks are bigger, but the imagination has a different sense of size and cannot sustain too large and complex a vision. A trunk that's a little bit +- your body width (bones) is usually big enough and very sustainable. Once you have measured the size of the root base, you can forget the trunk, dissolve it from around you. The feeder roots closer to the bark surface grow out from under the edges of it, and the core of the taproot extends down from your center, your central channel but the root itself is wider.
While it is easy enough to imagine the lower grounding cord going through the taproot, I find it diminishes the effectiveness, like it represents a distraction from the root presence. Grounding is an accurate but abstract image of the energy body, whereas the roots are modeled on a physical living thing of a different species, and completely different energy body. Its like they work on different dimensions, which in a way is true. Grounding into earth, grounding into root identity. Overlapping them gives a combo that is useful, but less than the sum of its parts with regards to intensity. Waters it down.
Its like if you try to merge Hawaii and the North pole together in your mind. They don't fit, either the palm trees are frozen dead or the snow is gone. The mind will start building greenhouses on top of hot springs. Creating a separation between the climates is not the same as making them coexist.
Get well grounded, lock it in, and then turn your attention to imaging the roots as something very natural and organic.
You asked to know more about the lower chakras. Learn all about the root by being there.
Just had another thought, is it okay to vent to the vortex? I do feel it is okay. So, sharing your frustrations, complaints and other such stuff to the vortex. I am sure the vortex (if one has one) is aware of what is happening but it's more for the impulse of needing to express with someone/something that you're finding a situation challenging. The need to be heard. Blogging achieves this too, to some extent.
Is the growing the roots also about belonging? like being rooted in this life?
And I guess it's important to give the vortex permission to snack on projectiles thrown your way?
I can usually get a sense of when someone is sending something my way. I think my body reacts in disbelief with what to do with that stuff. I could be going about my business and suddenly get a whack in my belly - a heavy feeling, uneasiness, a twisting sensation and other such stuff in the SP. Hence, the need to walk on eggshells/don't poke the bear/not rock the boat/exerting energy to try and minimise offense etc. when interacting with others...lest they throw something at me. How come my unconscious doesn't deflect the projections? yes, snack food, great...
I am just re-reading the projections page on the kundalini-teacher site. I don't know if this would be considered unwanted empathy, as there is a delay with the initial sending of the response and when I receive it. It doesn't feel like my own stuff coming back at me. It's like the whole defend and protect from other's projections doesn't work because consent was granted on a higher-level (karma yoga? not quite?) but the little me, on some level, is annoyed at having to take this burden on and be disposal factory for other people's crud. It feels overwhelmed. Is it the child me? Is the adult me? Child me, throwing a tantrum. It's just a part of me that is feeling this way but it is causing resistance. Needs not met is what I get. Refusal to comply until that "need" has been satisfied.
Please feel free to amend the post if some of it doesn't fit the overall topic. I will continue to do the exploratory stuff regarding the above in my own space...
Day two of the grounding and I have noticed an increase in energy and less of the karma hangover I was experiencing before from stealing energy has seemed to almost disappear since I started focusing on my own energy in social situations and at work. I even wrote in my journal today, my first entry for the coursework.
Blossom wrote: Just had another thought, is it okay to vent to the vortex? I do feel it is okay. So, sharing your frustrations, complaints and other such stuff to the vortex. I am sure the vortex (if one has one) is aware of what is happening but it's more for the impulse of needing to express with someone/something that you're finding a situation challenging.
For sure, you can talk to it about anything in your life. If you do not have a vortex, your DB is always listening anyway.
And I guess it's important to give the vortex permission to snack on projectiles thrown your way?
I can usually get a sense of when someone is sending something my way. I think my body reacts in disbelief with what to do with that stuff.
Mine does too. My ADD has a little bit of defiance disorder and I can locate it, it is behind my heart on the right side, a place where the rib pops out of place and gives a pain under my right shoulder blade, like a dagger stuck in. It reacts to people projecting who they want me to be, for them, telling them to F-off and so it is one point in my body that is not in surrender.
In front, it is an automatic defensive/aggressive response from the power chakra but I mitigated that reaction by cyborging myself a bit. I installed a mirror in front of my power chakra with a filter for that stuff, that reflects it up to my heart to be processed instead of out into the world fighting wars.
If you think of the projectiles as a gift they are sending, they become digestible by the vortex. You can invite it to accept all incoming projections as a snack gift and just let you know if they contain any important info. Ask it to help the child/fearful self who goes defensive too.
Keep in mind, higher vibe people register as "guru" in the unconscious minds of those in need and they will be moved to dump some of their karma on you, because that's what people do with gurus. If you have a vortex then it is negotiating for snacks with the unconscious minds and higher selves of other people and they won't know why they feel moved to share.
Just re-reading everything in the thread. One thing that has attached like a bur is when I said sang instead of a sexual vampire.
Regarding looking below the waist, I'd say it is a mixture of a few things autism, self-protection, family history, c-section birth. I am starting to get a sense of that part of my body, the heat, and energy movement. I did do the tree exercise a few times, but I did not get much from it.
I gave the 'vortex' permission to eat the projectiles and to help my child/fearful self. I have slowly been feeling a weight shift, the aftermath is a ball of heat and lightness in my gut. More calmness. I sat with things a bit more in the days after and had to think about what I was actually doing when I went into resistance. I mean, if stuff was negotiated on a higher level then those individuals have already relinquished their hold on that stuff and then it is up to me to say yes to it. They're now lighter(?) for unloading their gifts, and it's me who 'suffers' or becomes bitter about the stuff now stuck in the in-between. So, then it's self-inflicted pain. All I can think of is a beaver creating a dam in a river (beavers do this as protection against predators?). I am giving permission to the 'vortex' to reach back into my past for all the gifts, that I did not see as gifts, to have as a snack food.
In terms of getting a physical feeling (b/c that comes easiest) of the vortex and location of it in my body, letting go of any preconceptions, I just feel an intense heat and a circulation of energy tingles in the area around my stomach/diaphragm, and then awareness of it down below the belly button. And then the energy starts to extend down to my lower back after some time. It just permeates my chest cavity, abdomen and the area below the waist. And I admit, I feel a bit of confusion with the lack of "distinction" and how it "permeates" or "oozes" everywhere. So, a preconception appears. It may be something I just need to give more time, see what emerges after some space.
Quote from: Mystress on Jul 20, 2018, 02:34:04 AM
The first part of the grounding, where you fill your center... except pushing it. Trying to stretch to see how much sky energy you can cram in, until you feel like an overfilled balloon. Feeling the stretched state, the personal limits (Sava's body is getting flooded with the chi it needs to recover, -clean energy for a change-, and being reoriented to a new abundant food source.) To hit a limit, means your body has absorbed all the chi it can use. Then, instead of a slow trickle, you dump the energy all a once like pulling the cord on a laundry chute. The whole bottom of the reservoir opens up and the energy floods out, you let it all go. Relax in the resulting upward flow of Shakti like bathing in a river, letting it wash over you and through you. No resistance. I compared it to rinsing a glass by filling it and dumping it out repeatedly.
The prescription was for Sava to do it twice after grounding, followed by a regular grounding. 3x if he missed doing it on the previous grounding. That's a tougher schedule than I put shamans on! We felt his reorienting process will take 2-3 months and he won't feel a need for it after that.
For everyone else, try it if you want to, once or twice to feel it. Curiosity.
Increased energy, triggers more stuff. Monitor yourself, are you getting overloaded or a sort of karma hangover with more emotional stuff coming up after, or the next day?
I didn't teach it because you don't need it. Basic grounding is the essential thing. Stick with that. :)
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I have found that stretching over a stool on my back with a pillow to cushion the weight, the stool in the center of my body to get a deep stretch while I fill myself up with chi, breathing deeply in to gather air, is more effective to gather all the chi I can then to dump on the ground with my knees bent underneath me and my head faced towards the earth, breathing out heavily to re inforce the dumping act is more effective when the little stretch is not enough, I even went as far as saying out loud kind of loudly what I am doing to inform Goddess of my intent (sometimes it just isn't enough) it is quite an aggressive ritual this way, sometimes it takes 5 or 10 minutes to perform but I feel much calmer after doing so. I think doing it this way is okay, especially when Im really filled with bad chi.
I am reading some old posts (dating back to 2010), to see if I can get a new perspective on certain things. I do notice that some things I was concerned about back then re-emerge in different ways now. One thing you do keep repeating to me is "Don't be too hard on yourself" - I really honestly don't know how not to be. I can't seem to drop the perfectionism.
So, n one post, I was trying to explore my ugly side. I said: "I've noticed that I have a habit of being quite biting." This was in reference to me shit-stirring other people if there was something in me that reacted to their presence.
You responded by saying: Digging through this stuff is good, healthy. I think you are missing an underlying issue though and that is how these are all control games. People play control games when they are ungrounded, to steal the energy they need from other people instead of connecting to source.
Children need a parent or guardians love and attention like they need air, and the behavior patterns developed to get it is sort of below the level of the ego, wired into the survival mechanisms.
A lot of the primary control games we learned as a survival issue in childhood, will always surface again when your energy is low, no matter how enlightened you get, or are the rest of the time. If you get to know them well... know yourself well, you will catch them quicker when they appear.
Don't be too hard on yourself, everybody's got stuff. Continue with the introspection and surrender, but focus a little more on grounding and feeding yourself from source so the control dramas don't come up.
If you look at the above behaviour from a 'vampire' lens would this be akin to Vampire asshole?
Quote from: Blossom on Aug 10, 2018, 09:21:49 PM
If you look at the above behaviour from a 'vampire' lens would this be akin to Vampire asshole?
Well, different facets of the larger whole pattern of human power struggles.
Incubators for premature babies have gloves built in because it was discovered the babies won't survive unless they are touched, caressed, petted. They need the energy of attention. Children need it too, will act out to get attention energy, and so will vampires. We are supposed to mature at 13, establish our own energy connections and not be dependent. If everybody was successful at it then there would be no power games. The socialization effects of ego, sometimes leaves people feeling unworthy of that divine energy, it comes up for some people when they learn to ground.
Get grounded and power games lose their attraction... for most people. Vampires find the purity of divine energy to be lacking a certain something... (terror, crazy, death flavour) and will keep wanting energy from others regardless of how grounded.
What you described earlier, is a little like my shaman reactivity. Early years archives of the K list are full of what members came to trust and labeled "Zen whackings." I would get possessed by someone's karma and spew it back at them flaming but insightful, smacking kundalini psychosis back into sanity. Eventually I figured out that the intensity of harshness was in direct proportion to their resistance to the message... and as the process itself, (pushing past someone's resistance while possessed) is painful and exhausting I became a lot more of a hermit and focused on working with the receptive.
Some tearoom posts still have a bit of an edge... I admire Dale Carnegie "Never criticize, condemn or complain" and try for it, and wish I could be so smooth but my shaman takes over and it says "Fuck that, tell the truth."
Being a hermit has gotten kind of embedded too, as I made the decision this spring to return to public session work but have spent months stuck in procrastination trying to update the k teacher websites to say so. I have been trying to work out why... I actually enjoy working with people, sessions are fascinating.
I think part of it, is in the early days I had more backup. My Tribe would karma vamp me after sessions, picking off the lint and leftovers to enjoy the rush, 3rd party rules. The Tribe faded slowly after FST opened, and kind of fell apart when percyval died. I do call on the FST lineage occasionally but they have busy lives and are mostly in Europe so, time zones. Some of my R&D vamps have been willing, so maybe a sign to build a new cleanup crew of vampires. Volunteers?
Quote from: Mystress on Aug 15, 2018, 12:49:33 PM
Some of my R&D vamps have been willing, so maybe a sign to build a new cleanup crew of vampires. Volunteers?
Yum!
Quote from: Mystress on Jun 25, 2018, 11:25:52 AM
Sangs have two additional marks in the energy body besides the vortex.
What are the other Sang marks?
Quote from: Mystress on Jun 24, 2018, 02:12:09 AMI would like to send the vampires that wander into FST, off to a sister school, Vampire Mystic Academy, where they can get the specialized training and support from other vampires who are also FST grads.
I sent in a VMA join-form a month ago, after the SL chat. Did it go through?
Flammie wrote: What are the other Sang marks?
Sangs have three marks, the vortex, the ice blade and the cloak. I describe them in the first post.
I sent in a VMA join-form a month ago, after the SL chat. Did it go through?
No. As I mentioned previously, that site is broken and broken, web form, membership management system and forum, that's the whole site, all busted.
However the form script I use keeps a backup file of all entries so I was able to retrieve the raw data of your posts, Zephyr's and some spam from it.
That got me looking at how bad the mess really was... because I am a little impatient for it to go live too! So... another distraction from k teacher lol. I got in under the hood, poked and banged on things all night long, and maybe? I think? I actually managed to fix everything? I am not quite sure because I have not tested it, I am too tired to work on it more right now.
The membership management was installed into the wrong folder, then I had to rewrite the membership application form. Doubtless it will get refined, over time.
The web form on the main page, was not a "join" so much as "interested to know more." Collecting email addresses to send an update when it went live. Might be fixed, needs editing anyway now that the membership application (http://vampiremysticacademy.com/cgi-bin/la/register.cgi) is live.
Vampire Mystic Academy is intended for vampires only, and shamans because we make good support. That means membership has to be filtered. I do not want to be gatekeeper saying who is or isn't a vampire, but the questions on the application are to get to know people better, for my eyes only.
Some of my R&D vamps will get nickname, age, gender and location info only, to tune in remotely and look for marks, and ask their vortexes about new people. Very glad of their help with that! Takes one to know one, eh?
You, and the other confirmed FST vamps, I will rubberstamp your application (http://vampiremysticacademy.com/cgi-bin/la/register.cgi).
The forum seemed mostly ok except I had gotten stuck partway through customizing the colours. Got that sorted, kinda... improved at least.
Its set up like FST, there is the membership access and then you register yourself to the forum (http://vampiremysticacademy.com/members/YaBB.pl).
Related to the gatekeeper thing, there is a second level of security, it is a bit of a compromise. When you login to the members area there is a forum (http://vampiremysticacademy.com/members/YaBB.pl), and only two boards of it are visible: Guestbook and test posts. Like a lobby area for meet and greets, for the people I am not sure of. I can give them temporary access to introduce themselves on the guestbook, and end it if they turn out not to be.
For those who are confirmed vampire, you get added to the vampires group and then you can see all the other boards dedicated to the training. Though its a skeleton with just titles, at this point, Vampire Mystic Academy is sort-of open. 7 am now! Time to sleeeep....
Some of my R&D vamps have been willing, so maybe a sign to build a new cleanup crew of vampires. Volunteers?
I volunteer!
WZ
Feels like this thread is drawing to a close, its time to stop distracting the regular students and bring the vamps to the new Vampire Mystic Academy forum. I am not going to lock the thread but I feel it has served its purpose.
Vampires, please fill out the application form at http://vampiremysticacademy.com/cgi-bin/la/register.cgi (http://vampiremysticacademy.com/cgi-bin/la/register.cgi) to become a member of the new Vampire Mystic Academy. The form is long because I want to get to know people better, but most of the fields are optional. Look for the * and be sure to get them all because the form will forget everything you wrote it you have to hit the "back" button. (Might want to write your thoughts into a text file and paste. ) Mention your FST username under "Share:" so I know you.
If you are not sure if you are a vampire, do the same. You will get temporary ( a few weeks) access to the guest area of the VMA forum where you can register, introduce yourself, have your vampire state reviewed, maybe get advice or feedback about your condition.
VMA forum (http://vampiremysticacademy.com/members/YaBB.pl)
If you are approved, your intro post will be moved into the members only area for privacy.
Gabba Gabba We accept you! We accept you! One of us! (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fCY5Dku0Je4) (Love the Ramones!)
Verified vampires and supportive shamans will get the VMA Member group tag giving access to the members only instruction and info pages.
Mystress vampire support and R&D team also get a VMA Staff tag and access to those boards.
Seeya there!
ATTN: hungry hungry vampires*
If you feel low on energy/motivation/inspiration, check on this and snack as much as you want to whenever you want to.
https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/#countries
Invite your vortex to snack all it wants - open buffet; no limits
No need to focus on individuals
You most likely will end up snoring into deep restful sleep waking up feeling refreshed and ready to face a new day...
With all the strength, vigor, heightened senses, burning passion, inspiring creativity, and vitality of a vampire than Goddess made *you* to shine forth in this world every day...
* I am still very very hesitant to use the word vampire on myself simply because it comes with so much preloaded garbage.
I am gay brown Indian man (a very privileged one) who is interested in self growth.
I feel like I already have to work on not being associated with Indian guru types (I teach yoga and meditation) simply because I am not interested in that lifestyle and I very much like my career as a researcher...
I get to do fun stuff and learn every day instead of listening to same old crap.
Goddess gave me a good brain and She created a world full endless wonders to explore, experience, and appreciate with others.
My point is: I have enough 'weirdo' labels on me... never bothered me... always wore my freak flag proudly.
I don't want a bunch of people asking me 'Can you confirm if I am a vampire?'
What would you do if you walk into a coffee shop and a stranger approaches you: 'I have this suspicion for a while but can you confirm I am a human?'
I also could care less about bigoted religious groups.
I am *here* because Goddess wants me here.
You have problem with vampires dispensing spiritual growth advice and doing groundwork for collective evolution?
Talk to the boss.
*giggles*
Back to my point - I don't care to identify as vampire but it's a label and like all labels they have some purpose at some times.
Namaste!
Gopi
PS: There is no new information in this post really other than what Mystress has already said.
Quote from: Mystress on Jun 23, 2018, 12:28:45 PM
Pissing people off to get the negative emotional energy spewed at them, is the only way some know how to feed. Creating a ton of drama, fights, rumours that hurt people, lies and theft to make others send them anger energy is easy, it gives them a rush, they get to feel badass.
This happened to me, recently. I felt like it came out of nowhere. It knocked me down and kicked my ass out of being grounded, blissful and being a vessel of unconditional love for Goddess. I've been so off center for the last couple months, it's not even something I can describe. It's more like 'wtf was that??'. At least now I know and can say - 'you're welcome'.
A gift in it is that I *ran* back to here.
Well this is something. After some strong hinting and some advice I've started feeling that gut-level presence that I thought I'd lost for years once more. What a nice re-discovery, like getting a friend back.
I'm still perplexed about this and how it's possible. I thought I was just an empathic person who cared to listen to people's feelings as a result of an unhappy childhood. It didn't occur to me that I might have been eating people's misery. What shut this down? It was always a wonderful guide and teacher, and a compassionate listener to me. It's what helped propel my spiritual journey in the first place by feeding me ecstatic bliss whenever I encountered something it wanted me to see or hear. I really felt like I lost a piece of myself when I stopped feeling it.
The "vampire" label is honestly pretty funny. I understand the need to relate things to pop-culture, but I'm definitely not some kind of bodily parasite, or pulp fiction creature swooping in through windows to steal young women. I'm sure there are people who enjoy role-playing like they're in Vampire the Masquerade, and perhaps there are some people who are closer to that reality than I realize, but dark fiction to me doesn't do what I feel now much justice. This seems more like a refinery, finding the good in all things where the surface shows unpleasantness, like sifting through dirt to find diamonds, alternatively a universal transmuter. Much less scary. There is one part where the label fits well, which is the "tasty" energy part. I feel once more like I'm getting a constant stream of bliss, better than any man-made confection.
I have to wonder how this came about. In my childhood I had to be extremely cautious and aware of my father's emotional state, as the wrong words and the wrong mood would lead to physical violence towards me. People were always taking out their frustrations on me in the early years of school despite wanting to be their friends. I felt like if I couldn't have their love I'd have their ire, and so became the type of nasty provoker they wanted me to be - a viscous cycle. I felt a deep lack of love and acceptance in my childhood. I know this is stated to be "genetic" here but I have to wonder, can things like this be brought on as a response to trauma? If a child's self-esteem is broken, can the "power" chakra form the "vortex" in an attempt to gather the missing sense of strength that normally would come from within, leading to a genetic mutation/adaptation? Is this a retroactive "gift" given by quantum beings who know people will have a potential use and calling for based on the experiences they will encounter? Or is it just a more grounded genetic difference like blood type or bone density, which just happens to bring with it some curious spiritual differences?
Whatever the case I'm very grateful to be feeling more whole again. I'm excited to go further and see what else comes of this, what rules are helpful to follow and what self-work will bring this to optimal efficiency. Thank you for the kicks in this direction, Mystress, it truly has been a blessing.
Things people do to themselves.
You do realize the entity you wanted exorcised and the friendly presence you remember, are the same vortex guide? You demonized and rejected it, what else was it supposed to do, but hide from you? It cannot leave you.
I find issues with the vampire label to be quite revealing of the level of self acceptance. Triggers all the shadow stuff. You have a lot to work on, to own it. The V door is so scary you are trying the others? They won't fit you.
Your dad is what vampires turn into, if they do not own it. Monsters who feed on abusive power games with the most vulnerable, whom they are supposed to protect and care for. It is genetic. His example, represents all the motivation you need eh? To be better.
There is so much misery in the world to feed on, help people feel better. There is no reason or value in being the cause of it in others. In time, as you come to know yourself better you will understand how rejecting his nature was the root of the misery he lived and dealt.
Ask to see a vision of yourself as a newborn baby... vortex is there. Anyone can do the alchemy of unconditional love to transmute energy. Broken boundaries in childhood can be a source of unwanted empathy. Quite different if you *need it* to feel whole and good about yourself, and have a specialized guide for it with amazing capabilities.
BTW the concept of vampires goes back thousands of years in japan, china, persia and russian folk tales.
It is excellent you already have a good connection and it sorted the troubles too eh? You will find the guide supports your path through FST, adding insights. This tenement board is for the vampire related threads, so they are not too distracting for the regular students. Start a blog thread of your own here if you want to.
Re-read this thread and found the following quotes helpful as timely reminders.
Mystress wrote on 21 June 2018, 21:01:10
"A vampire's problems with unwanted empathy is actually just a digestive issue. Absence of consent. The impulse to take energy is inborn, knowing what to do with it is not. Inviting the vortex to eat all the empathic stuff, including the pain, and to keep eating it as it comes, puts an end to that misery and instead it becomes fun snacking. The energy the vortex gives back is delicious like candy, ecstatic, glowing."
Mystress wrote on 23 June 2018, 15:28:45
"Vampires who are untrained and do not know themselves have a bad tendency to feed on other people's life force. This is an invasive, aggressive act and some people will feel it and reject them. It also means they are taking in all kinds of garbage that they might not be able to process. Karma stuff, its all ego fragments and some undigested bits can get so embedded you think they are your own. Stolen energy is less digestible, because the vortex respects free will and the people owning the energy might not let go. Entanglements. The people it is taken from did not consent to give, so they hold on and its like swallowing a puffer fish that gets scared and inflates and sticks all spiny in the gullet. So they get a one-two punch of karma from theft by black magic, and are slowly physically and mentally poisoned by the snacking. Both contribute to some emotional and mental instability, and sometimes conflicting psychiatric diagnoses."
Mystress wrote on 18 July 2018, 19:19:05
"Karma, is fear. Free will is binary, love or fear. Karma is made of all the times you chose fear. Choosing fear is making more karma but also puts you into a state of resistance where what is trying to be cleared does not flow. When you are well grounded and free from fear, that is optimum for karma clearing and vortex work. Being in a fearful state really throws a wrench into things... but you can invite it to take the fear and its sources. Ask it to take anything that interferes with your grounding, and staying grounded. You cannot keep investing energy in choosing fear. Becoming fearless is part of grounding discipline."
Mystress wrote on 20 July 2018, 05:34:04
"I have found that people suffering emotional instability due to excess empathy just need the roots. Deep wide roots of a big old oak tree. Roots reaching along under the grass, taking up the rain and the minerals. They don't have to be crazy big (one overachiever immediately wrapped them all around the planet, useless) just what would be normal for an old oak. The big taproot, thick and strong down the center, growing down so deep,branching, anchoring it against all storms. Focus on that one. Yes, everyone. Try it. Imagine it there below you, part of you, and meditate on it until you feel a distinct shift in your sense of self.
The radio of all the noise and chaos fades and switches off. In feeling the roots and knowing the taproot, you discover who you are. You will feel a shift when all the external influences switch off and you become your real self. It is like coming home, to yourself. Your unique personality."
Mystress wrote on 21 July 2018
"Keep in mind, higher vibe people register as "guru" in the unconscious minds of those in need and they will be moved to dump some of their karma on you, because that's what people do with gurus. If you have a vortex then it is negotiating for snacks with the unconscious minds and higher selves of other people and they won't know why they feel moved to share."