Recently, while approaching sleep, and also while doing the grounding, I get this tangible, felt sense of something in my lower lumbar region. Not quite as low as the root or sacrum, but not as high as the solar plexus, either. Just a bit above the sacrum in the small of my back.
I feel it on my spine, like something definite has lodged itself there. I don't try to conjure the feeling, it just occurs, although maybe I could feel it whenever if I consciously directed focus there for a while.
I do get the sense that energy flow cuts off there and doesn't flow any higher, like I have a tree stump down there. Or a knot, a cork on a bottle, a walnut stuck in a hose. And that if I had an energy laser, I could blast through it, blast it away, and energy could then flow along the spine.
Any ideas? Is this a blockage? And if so, should I let it be and it'll take care of itself over time? Or lend focus to it when I do feel it?
Maybe I spoke too soon. I'm feeling stuff all over, not all like what I described. But subtle energy things, stuff that comes and goes. Probably old hat for a lot of people here.
Something is happening to me.
Hi,
congratulation.
I think that you are doing good. Observing stuff moving. That alone allows you to learn many things, that is very empowering. The FST course is designed so that many areas are touched and many things triggered. In most cases remaining calm and practicing grounding and surrender one finds many things move and change on their own.
I think one unique lesson of FST is softer approach and not even treating blockages as enemy or as a problem. Its like a weather, inner weather.


Love,

Duu
Funny that you mention weather. I just woke up from a dream where it was storming hard, I was running to get home at night and it was raining buckets and lightning everywhere. The main part was that the lightning was striking the trees, the dream ended with lightning striking a big tree that is not there in reality, but in the dream it was right outside my room in the house.
I don't want to get carried away by reading into things too much. But yesterday, a black cat crossed my path. Normally I don't make anything of that, and if anything I take it as a sign of good luck, cause you can choose how you interpret things.
But the whole night I had this sense of apprehension that I normally don't have. And physically feeling tense and a bit nauseous here and there. And then, by chance, or by a seemingly cruel twist of fate, I ran into this person I've been trying to move on from. I don't know how things lined up the way they did, but you couldn't have scripted it to go any worse for me. Just shot through the heart, maximum heartbreak and I could feel it in my chest the rest of the night, and still can.
I bring these things up because, on and off lately, it seems like events have been conspiring to turn my life upside down.
I've been holding up all right, even trying to laugh things off a bit. I saw the Eckhart Tolle quote on here, "I don't mind what happens." Sublime.
But yeah, it's been way strange lately :)
Its sometimes hard to know, when someone is ready to learn surrender. The original pacing had the lesson near the final 3rd, and update added some to an earlier lesson but one student who was very gung ho got carried away before he was established in grounding.
The middle ground, is to direct you to a few of my public pages. The energy of them is gentler than the FST lessons but the info is similar. http://kundalini-teacher.com/karma.php (http://kundalini-teacher.com/karma.php)
The sacrum has chakras that relate to a feeling of belonging in the tribe and on the earth. Breech birth or caesarian, sometimes they are not activated. Below the navel is second chakra, its about emotions and relationships as well as sexuality. The location of a blockage, its proximity to chakras can often tell a lot about what its about, but you had life underline the point for you... and in response to your wish to let go.
Karma release is part of the process. We try to make it gentle.
Carl Jung says "There is no coming to consciousness, without pain."
The Buddha says, "pain is part of life, suffering is optional."
As a BDSM Mystress I know, pain can become endorphin fired bliss, if you apply gratitude and acceptance. Its meant for physical pain, but it also applies to emotional pain. If you focus on the physical sensations of emotional pain, you step aside from the emotions and you can surrender the pain as just some stuff.
As you say:
you can choose how you interpret things.
Lightning in dreams refers to change, like the tarot card of the Tower. Trees represent the central channel. The grounding is doing its work, cleansing you. Flow with it and trust.
QuoteBelow the navel is second chakra, its about emotions and relationships as well as sexuality. The location of a blockage, its proximity to chakras can often tell a lot about what its about, but you had life underline the point for you...
Did I ever. My whole relationship with this person is bound up in emotions and sexuality. My repression of both, and her freedom and facility with them. The reason I fell for her, she is basically my opposite, a free spirit, liver of life, a lover, dancer, exudes sexuality. You know, I think I could have those qualities, maybe they are dormant or got stunted in me, based on a bunch of things from when I was young. Not really comfortable enough to air those things in a forum, but yeah.
Quotepain can become endorphin fired bliss, if you apply gratitude and acceptance. Its meant for physical pain, but it also applies to emotional pain. If you focus on the physical sensations of emotional pain, you step aside from the emotions and you can surrender the pain as just some stuff.
That's good to know, will do. Taking pleasure in pain has been a theme for me in recent years. And the BDSM aspect is part of what drew me to the course. I'm submissive, but I'm not sure it's natural for me, or if I would be if not for, again, the stuff from my past.
Thank you. Sincere gratitude for your insight in this strange time for me.