Dear All,
I would like to share my experience when awakening the Serpent last Saturday. I read the lesson on awakening the Serpent closedly and did contemplate on whether or not i am ready for a dramatic change in my life as awaken the Kundalini. I meditated and got Grounded. My inner voice told me that it is the right time to awaken the Serpent and it happened. At first, my consciousness fell in a deep relax state. I noticed a warm, red energy blanket my whole body, feel like love all over , and a sense a peace that i have never experienced before. At the same time, there was a warmer red current run up along my spine and dissipate in the head. I felt so relax at that time. Even now, whenever i close my eyes, i can experience those energy running through out my body again.
It has been couple days since awakening the Serpent, i hane been feeling so different, totally at peace and fully aware of the love all around me. Those family problems that i have been dealing with, do not have affect on me. Those verbally abusive language could not penetrate my ora any more. I feel so good. Thanks Goddess.
Blessings,
Giang.
For those who are already awakened, like you, the lesson deepens the experience. Thank you for sharing it.
The pattern with these, the bliss will seem to fade as you get used to it, and as the karma it triggers comes up to be processed there will be more emotional reactions to surrender. Don't look backwards, trying to recapture the past when that comes. Stay in the here and now and know there are many experiences yet to be had, not the same but each lovely and valuable.
Eastern types, Indians especially, often wonder at why I am not very available to them when they are new. They come from a culture with Gurus and project those expectations onto me. I am not one by choice, even though I have the attainments. I don't believe in it, I do not think the Guru gig is a good path of growing. A sort of spiritual laziness, an unhealthy power dynamic. The Guru fosters dependence on the Guru, to see the Divine in them and connect with it through them. I discourage people becoming dependent on me in that way, right from the start... especially at the start. Consistency. To encourage dependence, then have to pull that rug out from under them so they can be strong in themselves, would be worse for them.
FST is about becoming sovereign in yourself and giving your life over to Goddess within yourself. To find the inner Guru, the direct connection with the Divine and there is no need for a middleman, Priest or Guru is just a tempting distraction. If I am not around to lean on, especially at the start, the student has to focus on the lessons, on their inward process, forming their own direct connection to the Divine and that is what it is all about! :)
When it becomes established through their own efforts and merit, then She is first for them, not me and I take my proper place training them to deepen the connection with their own Divine Self.
Dear Mystress,
Thank you very much for your feedback and your teaching. Since awakening the Surpent, there are so much emotional stuffs shown up. I did my best to deal and to surrender to Goddess within. I have been spending more time connecting with the Divine Self and getting more comfortable with it. I will work on surrendering myslf total to the Goddess. My life has been driven by my own Ego and it is time for my Divine Self in charge.
I am looking foward to have the FST initiation session with my. When it is time, please let me know. Once again, thank you.
Blessings,
Giang.