There are things that happen to sensitive people that does not happen to others. One of them is a emotion dump. I used to be on a sensitive persons message board and everyone would complain about this. This is how I first recognised this for what it was. People you talk to just comming out with there horrable stories about there lives, and go on and on and just make you feel horrable. Why? I feel this is why I tend to hate people, all I get from them is there black emotions. I cannot hold a conversation with anyone without this happening..
I was at a psy circle last night(never again), there was a new girl there just learning. I start out the conversation..
"So.... You want to do astral travel? Out of body experiences? Shoot fireballs out of your head?" etc.. Just being me....
She doesnt even look at me, she looks at the lady next to me and starts to reply to my question?? She does this every time.. What the hell? I'm being ignored again.. but talked to?
Screw her...
I turn to the other lady..
"So you like to go to alternate realities and talk with beings from beyond our solar system? Walking astral planes?"... etc.. I'm just being me and silly...
And what do I get? She says 1 thing about astral travel, then starts telling me all about her broken marrage, why she is so sad, why she wanted to kill herself, why everything is bad with her...
WHAT THE HELL???
Why do people constantly give me all of there bad things in there lives!!! Or just ignore me. This is the reason why I cannot get along with anyone! I come on positive and friendly, and I get all these black emotions in return. And they never do this with other people! Just me, or people like me.. I have saved a few people like me from this by comming over and messing up the conversation just to get them out of it... They just dump it all on me, then they feel better and leave... Leave it all with me.. my day is ruined.. They go on to have a better day... I could kill them! It takes me so long just to feel better again.. To clean out...
I mean its hard to stop them when they are doing this.. And it happens all the time... I end up just not talking to people... I had a plan of holding up my hand and just saying..
"Stop.. your giving me too much info right now..."
But I was realising this about me... How it relates to who I am somehow... There has to be some sort of meaning here.. And I must have some sort of way to control this... Or be ready for it... Or anything...
What is the reason? What is the solution? I am not projecting me either, Im just me.
I'd love to express myself without getting kicked back at for once. Or hurting the person in return... I'd just like to talk without fear of this happening all the time...
Thanks
Sean