I've been having a lovely few months. I took a break from the course-work. I had to take a step back from 'actively' working on myself because when I place too much focus on me I tend to push things instead of allowing things to flow - I accept/acknowledge that. :D
I've been quite content most days and have been triggered less and less. I do notice it when I am triggered (my defenses) and do my best to process (surrender) anything that arises. Mostly 'stuff' about insecurity and the polarity of loss/gain. Lots of memories have also surfaced to be surrendered.
Since November, I have been back at university doing a Master of Social Work. This course has been awesome for me. The counselling aspects of it have been wonderful because it deals with non-judgement (detachment), ethics, peoples tendency to deflect and what to look for, interpersonal skills and other stuff... so, I've learnt a lot from it.
I did ask goddess/source if she could assist me with my fear of death (since that is something that pops up quite a bit and from a very young age) and she answered. The uni has decided to place me in a palliative ward for my first field-placement - I trust that it will be an enriching experience. :)
And that's about it from me :) xx
yup, placement (at the hospital's palliative ward/hospice) has been very enriching so far and I have had a few moments where my insecurities (anxiety) have been triggered. Processing all that. :D This first week was a bit intense and I found myself tired and going to bed early each night.