Hey All,
Since this bothers me deeply. I thought I'd put it down in writing.
How do you handle people who attack you outright? There is a certain older male (one of the bosses you could say) at work that seems to attack people when things aren't done his-time. I don't know what it is about gruff-male energy that rattles me so, but it does. Maybe it is the lack of father figure growing up + lots of feminine energy.. who knows! it doesn't really matter...source has that handled.
Anyway, with this person you have to get things done when he wants it done, no matter if there are other outside forces (Universe forbid it!) that conflict with this. Get a sign done for the business! Get it done and delivered in 2 days. Fantastic! most places have a minimum turn-over period of 4 days, some 6. No exceptions. Attack accounts because you need something done, but haven't given them permission to have access to the files needed.. so they don't have a user-name or password, geez. If you want it done for a certain day (because it's important) get it to the person sooner.. just don't expect the whole world to bend for you - to meet your expectations. Sure there is the whole ask and you'll receive from the universe, but those expectations won't work. And don't then go and attack a person because you're unhappy. That projection-$$$# is feral.
I'm bothered because I am being critical and that I am poking out perceived faults in another because I am taking it personally. It bothers me when it's done to me (the above) and it bothers me when I see other people go through it. My stomach is wrenching and in a knot of anxiety because of such situations. It takes me hours to fully let go, and my energy turns to crap because I suck everything in. Why do I become bothered by this? Damaged boundaries? Why can't I just stand tall and be assertive rather than cower and reply meekly. It makes no sense to me and the only person it really hurts is me! LOL. I know I can do better, but I don't. I get stuck in this same old pattern when it comes to confrontations - it's crazy! time and time again. These solar plexus issues.
Yes, I am surrendering this to Goddess, and trust that this baggage will continue to unravel.
Sorry, correction. I'm bothered because I am being critical. I am bothered because I am poking out perceived faults in another person because I am taking it too personally. Because I am letting this stuff happen to me!
Just wrap yourself in your wings. Attacks get reflected back with insights, and you stop needing to judge people, criticize them or want them to be different than they are.
Blessings
Okay, I will definetely give that a go. Thanks Mystress.